225. Is Empowered Mind Right for Me?

Written by Carrie Bock on May 21, 2026. Posted in OCD, Podcast Episode.

In this episode, Carrie shares why so many Christians feel trapped in exhausting OCD cycles and how Empowered Mind: Christian ICBT for OCD offers a different approach to finding peace, clarity, and lasting healing.

Episode Highlights:

What makes inference based cognitive behavioral therapy (ICBT) different from traditional OCD treatment
Why so many Christians struggle silently with scrupulosity and intrusive thoughts
How Empowered Mind helps simplify OCD recovery into practical, faith based steps
Why being “functional” doesn’t always mean you’re truly free from OCD
Who Empowered Mind is designed for and how to know if it’s the right fit for you
Why lasting OCD healing requires consistency, self awareness, and intentional change

Why Are So Many Christians Secretly Struggling With OCD?

I’ve heard from so many believers who feel trapped between their faith and intrusive thoughts, silently wondering if they’ll ever experience real peace. That’s one reason I created Empowered Mind Christian ICBT for OCD, to help Christians finally understand what’s actually happening beneath the fear and shame.

For many Christians, OCD doesn’t just create anxiety. It creates confusion, guilt, and spiritual exhaustion that can feel impossible to explain to others. In this episode, I share why so many people suffer silently for years and what starts to change when shame finally loses its grip.

Could ICBT Change the Way We Approach OCD Recovery?

What drew me to inference based cognitive behavioral therapy (ICBT) is how differently it approaches OCD. Instead of constantly battling anxiety, it teaches you to recognize obsessional reasoning before you get pulled into compulsions. That shift alone can completely change how you respond to intrusive thoughts.

I also talk about why ICBT has been such a game changer for many Christians struggling with scrupulosity and fear based thinking. Once you begin understanding how OCD builds its stories, you start seeing why trying harder or seeking more reassurance never truly brings peace.

What Makes Empowered Mind Different From Other OCD Resources?

Empowered Mind isn’t a quick fix or another overwhelming pile of information. I created it to simplify ICBT into practical, faith based steps that Christians can actually apply in real life. The course walks through the OCD reasoning process in a way that feels understandable, approachable, and deeply connected to faith, especially for those struggling with scrupulosity.

Inside the course, I guide listeners through examples, exercises, and real life applications designed to help them recognize OCD patterns more clearly. I also explain why healing takes consistency and practice, not perfection or instant breakthroughs.

Who Is Empowered Mind Actually Designed For?

I created Empowered Mind for Christians who are tired of OCD running their lives and are ready to start making meaningful changes. It’s especially helpful for people who may not have access to specialized OCD therapy yet or who want a faith based approach that truly understands scrupulosity.

I also share why this course requires self motivation and intentional effort. Healing from OCD isn’t about passively consuming information. It’s about learning new mental patterns, building awareness, and slowly stepping out of the cycles that have kept you stuck for years.

Is Being “Functional” Really the Same as Being Free?

So many people tell me, “I’m functional,” while internally battling intrusive thoughts all day long. But surviving isn’t the same as living abundantly. In this episode, I share why OCD recovery is about more than coping. It’s about finally stepping out of the exhausting mental cycle.

I want listeners to know there is hope beyond constantly fighting mental compulsions in the background of everyday life. Freedom may not happen overnight, but healing becomes possible when we stop accepting exhaustion as normal.

Don’t miss the deeper stories, faith insights, and practical ICBT tools shared in this episode.Tune in now.

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224. Remaining Hopeful When Past OCD Treatment Has Failed

Written by Carrie Bock on May 19, 2026. Posted in OCD, Podcast Episode.

In this episode, Carrie shares how to move forward when OCD treatment, ERP, prayer, or recovery programs leave you feeling stuck, discouraged, and questioning whether things can really change.

Episode Highlights:

Why failed OCD treatment can feel emotionally devastating for Christians
The mindset shift that changes how recovery and progress are viewed
What may actually be missing when therapy does not seem effective
Why more people are exploring ICBT after difficult ERP experiences
How faith, resilience, and growth can still emerge from disappointment

Episode Summary:

Why Does OCD Treatment Sometimes Fall Short Even When You’re Committed to Recovery?

I’ve worked with many Christians who invested significant time, money, and emotional energy into OCD treatment, only to feel discouraged when the results did not match their expectations. Opening up about intrusive thoughts, scrupulosity, anxiety, or fear takes tremendous courage, which can make disappointing treatment experiences feel especially painful. But what if those setbacks are not the end of the story?

Could Your OCD Recovery Be Limited by the Way You Measure Progress?

One of the biggest mindset shifts I’ve learned is that healing is rarely linear. Progress does not always look like immediate symptom relief or dramatic transformation. Sometimes the earliest signs of growth are quieter, and if you are only looking for huge breakthroughs, you may miss the deeper changes happening underneath the surface.

What Happens When OCD Treatment Is Not Truly OCD-Informed?

I’ve seen many individuals enter therapy believing they were receiving specialized OCD treatment, only to later realize their therapist lacked a deeper understanding of intrusive thoughts, scrupulosity, or evidence-based OCD care. When faith is involved, that disconnect can feel even more discouraging and confusing than people expect.

Why Are More Christians Exploring ICBT for OCD Recovery?

Many Christians have shared with me that traditional OCD treatment approaches felt emotionally overwhelming or failed to address the deeper reasoning process driving their fears. That is one reason I became passionate about Inference-Based Cognitive Behavioral Therapy, because it approaches OCD from a completely different angle that many people have never heard explained before.

Could the Fear of “Never Getting Better” Be Strengthening OCD?

OCD often keeps people trapped in constant analysis about whether treatment is working, whether they chose the wrong path, or whether they are somehow beyond help. I’ve seen people spend years searching for certainty instead of taking the next healthy step forward, and that cycle is more common than most people realize. Sometimes the deeper struggle is not just the OCD itself, but the hopelessness and discouragement that quietly grow alongside it. And when that happens, it can start to feel impossible to believe that things could ever change.

There’s more hope here than OCD wants you to believe. Tune in now.

Transcript

Today we’re talking about how do you remain hopeful when OCD treatment in the past has failed. Welcome, OCD warriors, to the Christian Faith and OCD podcast, where we are all about reducing shame and stigma of struggling with OCD as a Christian, sharing hopeful stories, and replacing uncertainty with faith as you develop practical tools for greater peace.

I’m Carrie Bock, Christ follower, wife, mom, and licensed professional counselor in Tennessee. I pray you are blessed by today’s episode. Let’s face it, we’ve all tried something new that hasn’t worked out, whether that was the strategy on how to meal plan, how to organize your home, new fitness or diet program that you tried that you were really excited about, hopeful it was gonna change your life.

Maybe it was a new parenting program you got involved in, and then things just seemed to crash and burn and didn’t work out in the end. It can be really hard to restart a-anew when something has failed. I know for me, in my own personal counseling journey, it took me a while to find a counselor that I really gelled with, somebody that I felt like was empathetic towards me.

I went to a particular counselor at one point, and she was just very cold, very judgmental over my present situation, and I had explained to her that I had had some negative counseling experiences in the past when I tried to seek help, and there wasn’t really empathy for how hard it was for me to try again.

Fortunately, I kept trying until I found a really great therapist that helped me when I was struggling with some work and home things towards the end of my first marriage, and then really walked me– I was glad that I already had her in place, and she helped walk me through my divorce process, which was very traumatic for me, and I talked about that way, way back on the first episode, what God brought me through in that situation.

But I’m glad that I didn’t give up, and I’m glad that I didn’t stop and say, “Well, maybe therapy is…” Obviously, I believe it was a good thing because I was a therapist at the time, but I’m glad I didn’t say, “Well, maybe there’s just not someone out there for me,” or, “Maybe I just can’t get the help that I need.”

When you’re trying to get help for a mental health issue, something not working out is even more devastating because it’s so vulnerable to open yourself up and to try to get that help, and then to essentially have hope feel like it’s just dashed. It’s harder, I feel like, to recover from that. In the OCD space, people are just desperate for answers due to the high amount of suffering, and maybe you’ve even been through something like an intensive outpatient program.

Maybe you’ve gone to a residential program, and you just didn’t feel like you got the full results that you were needing. So how do you remain hopeful after an experience like that? Obviously, you’ve invested a lot of time, mental, emotional energy, money. These things are not cheap that we’re talking about.

Out- intensive outpatient programs, even with insurance, these things are not cheap. And it’s easy for you to get in this space of feeling just totally defeated. And then OCD likes to come in and say, “Well, see, you’re just too broken to get help.” And these things are lies that I want you to be able to identify.

Some other thoughts you might have, that means there’s something really wrong with you. OCD may even tell you, “Well, the OCD program couldn’t fix you, so see, there’s more here than just OCD.” And I don’t know. There may be different disorders that you’re dealing with that haven’t been addressed that might need to be looked at comprehensively.

Maybe there are some medical things going on that haven’t been explored. It’s hard to know sometimes, and it’s hard to tease those different things out about what you might actually be needing. You may start obsessing about treatment or about finding the exact right path. I know I definitely have talked to many people in this scenario.

They’ve spoken with me about the Empowered Mind course and said, “Is this really gonna help someone like me? How do I know?” We’ve been working, and I think I need to update our webpage a little bit, but there is a thirty-day money back guarantee on that program Just so that you know if that’s something that you’re thinking about.

And we put that on there a little while ago because we started to hear such good results from people that were going through it. And I said, “Hey, why not make it a little bit more risk-free for individuals that want to check that out?” So just so you know, there is a 30-day money-back guarantee. We haven’t had to refund anybody as of yet.

Knock on wood, hopefully, we won’t have to do that. There’s so much great information, even just on how OCD works and understanding it in your own experience. It’s a really valuable opportunity and has helped so many people. But it’s understandable when people come to me and they say, “I don’t know if this is gonna work for me because I’ve tried this, this, this, and this.”

So if you’re confused about what the next step is for you in terms of your OCD recovery journey, just know that it’s okay and that you’re not alone, that a lot of people go through this. Progress is not always linear. You may have had stressful life experiences happen, such as a grief and loss experience.

Maybe you had a huge job transition or a move and things were going pretty well, but then whatever happened or the life stressors have really activated OCD more in your life. Just know that that’s very common. And so where maybe you felt like, “Okay, things were pretty functional and I was doing okay before,” what I’ve noticed a lot of times is that people don’t get help until it really starts impacting their functioning and they somewhat hit a wall where they say, “I can’t keep living like this anymore.”

I would encourage you, if you know OCD is part of your story, is to not wait until it gets super bad or super loud. Go ahead and get the skills. Go ahead and learn the things that you need to learn in order to handle it when it’s at a much more manageable level. That’s gonna serve you better if things do get worse later due to stress.

Also, obviously, anything that you can do to help reduce your stress is going to help you in your OCD recovery process, whether that’s exercise, connecting with friends and in community. And obviously, some of these things take time and practice. Getting into some type of like meditative, deep breathing, like being able to relax your body.

All of those skills are really helpful to have to just manage day-to-day life stress that we all have to deal with, regardless of whether or not you have OCD. When something fails, I wanna talk with you about the difference between a fixed mindset and a growth mindset. A fixed mindset is more stuck in this all or nothing.

Either I’m good at something or I’m not. Either something worked or it was a complete failure. Whereas a growth mindset says, “You know what? There were some things that didn’t work out. How can I learn from this?” Or, “How can I grow into this? How can I look at where I’m at right now and not just focus on the deficits, but focus on the strengths?”

There may have been things that you picked up through some of these past therapies, whether self-help workbooks, whatever it is that you’ve tried. There may have been some gains that you had. By focusing on those and then moving forward, you can kind of identify, okay, what has worked and what hasn’t worked and why.

Unfortunately, of all the mental health disorders out there that I’ve worked with, I have never seen a population so underserved as the OCD community It’s really heartbreaking because so many have been told by therapists, “Oh, yeah, I can see you for the OCD. Oh, yeah, I can work with you on that.” It’s really important that you dig a little bit deeper and ask for a little bit more information before you proceed.

If you are educating your therapist on what scrupulosity is, and you have scrupulosity, they are not equipped to treat you. You need to find someone who has the tools and skills that you need in order to be able to help you. That is really crucial. So I’d like to give you a four-step process on how to remain hopeful when your past OCD treatment has failed.

You’ve tried talk therapy, you’ve tried biblical therapy, you’ve tried talking to your pastor about it, you’ve tried deliverance or healing prayers, and you still feel stuck. Number one, as we talked about a little bit before in terms of that growth mindset, I want you to look at what have been the gains.

Now, this may be really hard for you to see, but I think it’s an important first step. There’s a book called The Gap and the Gain. This is a great book. It’s really more of a business coaching-type book, but I believe that it can be applied definitely to many areas of our life. This idea that the gap is the distance between where you are and where you actually want to be, kind of this ideal destination that you’re trying to get to.

That’s the gap. The gain is kind of measuring where you are now versus how far you’ve come. Like, how far have you come from in the last five years or in the last 10 years? So what have been the things that, over this OCD recovery journey, what have been the gains? Maybe you have shifted, and you don’t feel so ashamed about your OCD anymore or about talking about it.

Maybe you’ve been able to open up with a few trusted friends or close family members about what you’re dealing with. Maybe there has been some shame reduction through some talk therapy, even though the therapy itself didn’t help with the OCD. Maybe just evaluating your life, you’ve had some gains in relationships.

Maybe there’s been some repairs that have happened or some forgiveness after hard conversations. Maybe you’ve accomplished something really important, like finishing a degree program, for example. Maybe you’ve had children. I don’t know, what is it that– how have you learned and grown over this process?

Maybe you feel like you’ve become more dependent on God through dealing with OCD. So where are the gains at? And this is important because if you know that you’ve experienced these positive gains from some of these things, then you have the encouragement to know that you can continue to move forward and continue to have progress and gains as part of your story.

So by measuring backwards, I’ve talked about this in my email, so if you’re not on our weekly newsletter, please go to carriebock.com and hop on it. I did a whole email on measuring backwards and looking at my own life and how that has shown up for me. But that’s also a concept from The Gap and The Gain, so shout out to that book again.

But this measuring backwards and really looking at where you’ve come from and the progress that you’ve experienced, that encourages you as you move forward to say, “Hey, there’s hope for me here.” If I’ve gotten through this hard thing in my life, I always somewhat go back a little bit to birthing my daughter.

I had my daughter naturally, and some people are like, “Does that win you an award?” Like, no, maybe not, but it does in my own mind, because if I go through physical pain or I had a kidney stone and the whole time is very painful, very uncomfortable, like, I birthed a human. I birthed a child. It’s okay. I can get through this.

It’s really hard, and it’s really painful. The very disappointing part of the kidney stone is, like, there’s no child at the end. At least when you give birth, you know, there’s this gigantic reward of going through all that pain. You have your child. But kidney stone, you’re just like, “Oh, great, that’s out of me now.

I’m so happy I no longer have that in my body.” I hope I don’t ever have to go through that experience again. Thankfully, that was many years ago, and I drink a lot of water, so hopefully will avoid future kidney stones if you know on that one. If you don’t, you just pray you never have to go through it.

But for you, my point is, what is that thing that you go back to and you say, “You know what? I did the hard thing, and so if I did the hard thing here, I can do the next hard thing there.” If you can go back and say, “You know what? God got me through this really stressful life experience that I had. I know He’s gonna get me through this really hard season that I’m going through right now,” and that’s huge.

That’s what faith is, saying, “Hey, I don’t know how all this is gonna work out. I don’t know how I’m gonna get to a better place with my OCD recovery, but, God, you’re bigger, and I know that you can walk with me through it.” Number two, I want you to really look at what’s worked, what hasn’t worked. Was it a lack of training from your therapist in evidence-based practices such as ERP or ICDT?

Did you have a secular therapist, but you didn’t feel like they understood or empathized with your faith struggles? Did you have a Christian therapist that was kind of pointing you back to the Bible but didn’t necessarily have the OCD-specific tools? Was it a situation where you started but just didn’t follow through?

I’m not trying to be hard or, or step on any toes here, but maybe you got going and you went for a few sessions. Maybe you went for five, six sessions, and life got busy. You canceled your appointments. There was some reason that you said, “Hey, I can’t do this right now,” and so you never really got to see that process through.

Maybe you say, “Hey, I tried it,” but you really, like, dipped your toe in the water versus getting all the way into the pool like you needed to. And look, there’s no judgment because it’s really hard to face your stuff. Like, whatever your stuff is that you’re dealing with, regardless of the theme, it’s scary, right?

And we know that. You wanna ask yourself, like, “Am I ready to do this work?” Because I do think that’s a huge piece of it. I think you have to be ready to look at these hard and difficult thoughts. Like, where is this obsessional doubt coming from? What’s really the story that’s interwoven here? Looking at this feared self you’re afraid of becoming.

All these things can be really hard or uncomfortable or scary, vulnerable, whatever that is, to look at, so I get that. But that’s a point of evaluation for yourself to say Hey, did I go into this and I didn’t give it my full effort for whatever reason? It was a busy season at work. I didn’t do my therapy homework my therapist was encouraging me to do.

I was kind of only halfway bought into the process. Whatever it was, hey, maybe it would work if I fully immersed myself into that particular therapy. I know for iCBT it can be somewhat complicated. You’re learning all of these different parts and different pieces, and it takes a while. There’s a lot of awareness building that you get to before you actually get to the intervention stage.

And so a lot of times people will come in and it’s like, “What do I do? What do I do? What do I do?” And it’s like, “Okay, but you have to become aware first.” Well, that’s not very fun. People don’t want that answer. And as you become more aware, you can start to tweak and change, so it’s not like you don’t develop maybe interventions that on the front end that keep you from engaging with OCD, because you start to see it more.

“Oh, that’s OCD. I don’t need to disengage with that. Oh, that’s OCD. I don’t need to engage with that.” But as far as the skill processes of being able to recognize, like when you’re going into the OCD bubble, what specific thoughts are carrying you over there, getting into like more of the deeper alternative narrative writings, things like that, those steps come later in the process, reality sensing.

And a lot of times what I see with iCBT, if it’s not working, it’s because someone is not understanding the obsessional process that got them into that obsessional doubt. Either there’s multiple different things that can go wrong, not identifying the primary obsessional doubt, not really having a good clarity surrounding the obsessional story, not understanding the obsessional reasoning process of how they reasoned their way into OCD and the difference between that and an everyday reasoning process.

If you don’t have those pieces first, those pieces are really critical in iCBT to understand and a lot of times what I see is people saying, “Well, there’s a sensory gap here. How do I know what sensory information to pay attention to?” There’s a lot of confusion because they’re trying to reality sense too early Or they’re trying to write an alternative narrative too early, and they skipped these very important steps.

All of these pieces have to be able to work together. So know that there’s a time investment. Like, if you’re willing to learn ICBT for yourself, the course that I take people through is 12 weeks long. Originally, there were 12 modules to ICBT. Things have been really shaken up by the Resolving OCD books, and they’re just packaged very differently.

Same concepts. A lot of therapists are still utilizing the 12 modules that were in the original treatment manual. However you’re absorbing it, it’s still just a lot of information to really get into your system, sink down deep, and understand and practice. So keep that in mind if you are looking at, at doing ICBT.

I know from talking with people who have gone through exposure and response prevention in the past, one thing that can go wrong there is people feel like any type of exposure just feels like too much. They don’t feel like they can titrate it and gradually ease themselves into what they’re trying to tackle.

So that can be a challenge. Obviously, a lot of people drop out because it is hard, and maybe they can expose themselves to some things on the lower levels, but then not on the upper levels. I’ve also heard other people say, “Hey, I could totally do it with my therapist, but then I wasn’t really able to incorporate it outside of therapy.”

So there has to be a plan or a willingness if you’re gonna do ERP to have that– bridge that gap, right, between what you’re doing in session and what you’re doing outside of session, kind of to continue that journey on. Number three on increasing your hope when things have failed is to choose to believe that God has more for you, that Jesus promised an abundant life for you.

I’ve been really amazed with some of the people that I’ve worked with because their OCD was just so severe, and I’ve asked them, like, “Why did you keep going? Why did you keep pursuing treatment?” And the overwhelming thought process that they’ve given me is, “I just knew there had to be more out here. Like, if Jesus died for me to give me life, not just life forever in heaven with Him, but a life here that’s rich and full and purposeful, I knew that this OCD that I was trapped in, that this is not it.”

And that helped propel them and keep them moving forward. So I would encourage you that even if it’s hard to latch onto right now or it’s hard to believe, Jesus loves you. God loves you. He has an amazing plan for your life. He wants this to be a full and rich experience for you where you are connected with Him and not terrified to engage in your spiritual practices.

God wants you to be able to engage in community, to love God, and to love other people. I mean, those are the two greatest commandments. And if you feel like OCD is getting in the way of you loving God or loving other people, just know that God wants to meet you on your journey and that He has so much more for you.

And that it may be scary to step out and risk do– trying something new, and it may or may not work, and you kinda have to be okay with that. But just knowing that that’s part of your journey, and that’s part of your process. The reality is that we’re all on a character development track if we choose to be on that with God, that He is conforming us to the image of His Son.

That’s His desire for us, and sometimes that means we go through some really tough stuff and go through suffering, and that’s how I conceptualize OCD as suffering. I don’t conceptualize it as sin or something that you’re doing to cause this. It’s not punishment from God. It is human suffering as a result of the Fall, as a result of brains that are imperfect and don’t always function the way that they are supposed to.

My fourth and last point, which probably could be potentially an earlier point, is I want to encourage you to pray To seek God and to really believe in faith that He’s gonna guide you on this OCD recovery process and lead you towards what is the next step for you. And God has the ability to provide and make a way for whatever it is that you are needing.

There have been various different points in the process of my business, in the process of doing the podcast, where I was genuinely in need, and God showed up and provided what I needed, whether it was a contractor to work with, whether it was a business coach, whether it was a physical location. When I started my practice, I had about basically two months to get all of my ducks in a row to get everything straightened out.

I was in a group practice that essentially kind of broke apart a little bit. The owner decided to do– structure his business very differently, and it was kinda like, “Okay, well, okay, God, I guess I’m just jumping off the end of the pool,” because I knew that long term I wanted to be on my own. But I had become very comfortable with where I was at.

I wasn’t really in a state of high risk or anything of that nature. I had taken a couple years. I had built a full caseload. Everything was going smoothly, and then this shook everything up, and I was like, “Oh, man. God, I just wanted to stay here. It was just so comfortable. This is where I need to be.” And God ultimately made me uncomfortable so that I got out of that situation and ended up starting By the Well Counseling in twenty seventeen I can honestly tell you every single office that I’ve had, there’s some type of God story connected to that.

My very first office, I was driving around calling real estate agents, just looking for signs that said available office space in the area that I wanted to be in. And at that point in time, I didn’t want to move too far because of the clients that I was seeing. I was like, “I need to kinda sorta stay in this area.”

And God totally just provided something. The guy was like, “Oh, hey, yeah, I can show you the office.” We went in. It was the right size that I was looking for. It was this little tiny… It had four offices in it, but the total square footage was less than 1,000 square feet. It was maybe 750 square feet. It had this little tiny waiting room.

It had a bathroom. I was like, “Okay, that’s all we need.” God provided the people in there to rent from me to sublet the other offices. I had a couple other therapists in there, and I was able to keep that space full. There’s just so many things that I could tell you that God has done over the years, just providing me with the right people and connections to work with, but it hasn’t always been easy.

I have had to step out in faith. Not everything that I’ve done has worked out. Trust me, there have been a lot of things that never got off the ground. Empowered Mind is actually my fourth course that I’ve ever created, and it’s been definitely the most successful. My very first course was on anxiety and sold zero.

Failure is just a part of the process, but I say that to encourage you wherever you’re at to keep praying and keep asking God. And as we continue to submit to Him and continue to trust Him, He is gonna lead you on the right path at the right time. A lot of these stories and different things that I’m talking about, I love sharing those on our weekly email newsletter, just different things that God is showing me throughout the week.

Sometimes it’s a thing that has to do with parenting. Sometimes it’s a spiritual truth. Sometimes it’s a story about something from my past where God really showed up. I just believe that God wants us to have a sense of healing and wholeness in Jesus Christ. Does that mean that we’re gonna be 100% healed on this side of heaven?

I don’t think that’s always the case. Obviously, there are lovely Christian people that die of all types of different things, and some point or another, we are all going to pass away. But while we are on this earth, we are responsible at some level for stewarding our health physically emotionally, mentally, and partnering with God in that.

And so as you sit down and pray and seek God, just ask him, “What are my next steps?” And if you feel like God is leading you in a direction and the finances aren’t there, then pray for God to provide the financial way for you to be able to make this happen. And I believe that God will open up those doors as well.

There was a podcasting business coaching program that I got into before I rebranded the podcast almost two years ago now to Christian Faith & OCD. When I first found out about the coaching program, I did not have the money to get into it, and God totally provided for that in a very short period of time.

It was like, “Oh, okay, here’s the money.” And what was crazy was I still questioned it. I still went to my husband and I said, “We did get this money, but, I mean, should we spend it on this? Like, is this the right path?” Even though now I can look back on it, it was clearly God’s provision for something that I was already praying through, like, “Do you want me to be in this program?

Should I do this or not?” And that has completely, essentially changed the trajectory of my business and what I’m doing. I’m very thankful. I can look back over the past nine years of my business and tell you that what I started out doing nine years ago is very, very different than what I’m doing now. But I believe that God has me exactly where He wants me to be, and I’m trusting Him with whatever this next chapter is.

Would love to talk with any of you. If you wanna get in touch with us, you can go to keribach.com. And again, just know that as you’re praying through these different options, know that Empowered Mind Christian ICBT for OCD is an option for you. We have a full workbook that goes along with that course, with homework assignments where you can walk through and practice these skills with your particular OCD themes that you’re dealing with.

Thanks so much for listening. I’m gonna talk with you about some important course updates actually next podcast episode. So if you’re thinking about it, we’re gonna talk about that. And hint, hint, there is a Memorial Day sale coming up if you haven’t heard that. So be sure to check that out. In order to do that, you gotta get on our email list, so keribach.com.

Until next time, may you be comforted by God’s great love for you. Christian Faith & OCD is a production of By the Well Counseling. This podcast is for informational purposes only and should not be a substitute for seeking mental health treatment in your area.

223. How Mindfulness is Helpful for ICBT

Written by Carrie Bock on May 12, 2026. Posted in OCD, Podcast Episode.

In this episode, Carrie shares how mindfulness and Inference-Based Cognitive Behavioral Therapy (ICBT) can come together in a powerful way to support your OCD recovery journey.

Episode Highlights:

The difference between mindfulness and meditation, and why it matters

How mindfulness helps you create space from intrusive thoughts

Why building distress tolerance is key for OCD recovery

What ICBT is and how it reveals what’s really happening behind OCD

How faith, Scripture, and staying present support your healing journey

Episode Summary:

How Can Mindfulness Actually Help Me Break Free from OCD Thought Loops?

I used to think mindfulness was just about calming down, but I’ve seen it become something much deeper. It creates space between you and the intrusive thoughts that feel so real. And in that space, something begins to shift. Instead of reacting, you start noticing. That small change can open the door to a different kind of peace, especially in the middle of OCD struggles.

Why Do I Keep Getting Stuck in Worst-Case Scenarios Even When I Know They Aren’t True?

Your mind can take one moment and turn it into a future disaster that feels completely real. But what if the issue isn’t the thought itself, but how we respond to it? I’ve seen how OCD pulls us out of the present and into imagined fear. When we gently return to what’s actually happening right now, things begin to loosen, even if just a little.

What Happens When I Stop Fighting My Thoughts and Just Sit with Them?

This is where it gets uncomfortable, but also where growth begins. Instead of pushing thoughts away, mindfulness invites you to stay present with them. To notice without judgment. And over time, you may begin to see that thoughts don’t hold as much power as they once did. That shift can feel quiet, but it’s meaningful.

How Do Mindfulness and ICBT Work Together to Rewire My Thinking?

When mindfulness and ICBT come together, something powerful happens. ICBT helps you understand the story your mind is telling, while mindfulness helps you slow down enough to see it. Without awareness, it’s easy to stay stuck. But once you begin to notice the patterns, you’re no longer completely led by them.

Why Does OCD Feel So Real in My Body Even When I Know It Doesn’t Make Sense?

OCD doesn’t just live in your thoughts. It shows up in your body, your emotions, and that sense of urgency. It feels real because your body believes it is. Mindfulness helps you stay present with those sensations without reacting right away. And over time, that builds trust that you can handle what you feel.

How Can My Faith Support My Healing Instead of Adding Pressure?

Faith was never meant to increase fear. When we come back to stillness, daily dependence, and God’s presence, it aligns beautifully with mindfulness. God meets us in the present moment, not in imagined fears. And learning to sit with Him there can bring a deeper, steadier kind of peace.

If this stirred something in you, there’s more waiting for you in the full episode. Listen now.

Transcript

Today we are talking about the connection between mindfulness and ICBT, and I think that they can have a really great marriage together. But I will talk to you a little bit about why I think that. On this episode welcome OCD Warriors to the Christian Faith and OCD podcast where we are all about reducing shame and stigma of struggling with OCD as a Christian sharing hopeful stories.

And replacing uncertainty with faith as you develop practical tools for greater peace. I’m Carrie Bock, Christ follower, wife, mom, and licensed professional counselor in Tennessee. I pray you are blessed by today’s episode. Now we’ve talked so much about mindfulness on the podcast. You could go back and search some of the previous episodes.

However, I wanna give you the brief rundown of mindfulness, the very brief rundown of ICBT and why I believe these two interventions can go really well together and how mindfulness can support your ICBT journey. If that’s a journey that you are on now, mindfulness is different than meditation. A lot of times people will use those interchangeably.

Meditation you have a specific goal that you’re trying to work on, and there is such a thing as Christian meditation. You can focus on scriptures, et cetera. However, what we’re doing with mindfulness is really just developing this awareness of the present moment, what’s going on in it, not just to build awareness of what we’re experiencing in this moment and what’s happening around us, but also this acceptance for what’s actually here versus trying to avoid it as what we normally do.

Right? Like. Pull away from things that are uncomfortable to us and lean towards things that feel good, that are comfortable, that we want to engage with. Mindfulness allows you to create some space between you and your thought process. For example, this can be very helpful in terms of dealing with OCD, recognizing like, Hey, I’m having an intrusive thought right now.

This is something I’m latching onto as part of my identity that I’m bringing in and making meaning out of it. Mindfulness increases what we call distress tolerance. That’s your ability to handle difficult situations. It’s interesting, I learned so much from working with clients and. I had someone ask me recently, a long time person that I’d been working with, and we made the move to kind of go down this mindfulness path and lean in a little bit more than we had previously.

And he says to me, so let’s say I’ve become really good at this, then what? Like, what’s the end game here? I’m just gonna run around being this person that just lives in the moment. Like, isn’t that nice? And I said, Hmm, that’s a great question that you asked me. I had to think about it for just a moment.

And then I said, you know, when something difficult happens, when a stressful life situation hits, you are gonna be able to pause and you’re gonna be able to see what’s actually going on in that moment that you need to address and deal with, versus going into all of these hypotheticals about worst case scenarios about what.

Could actually happen. For example, you get a difficult test result back from the doctor. Maybe it’s something that you don’t like, right? Maybe you get some blood work back and it’s like, Hey, you’re in pre-diabetes. You really gotta change your lifestyle habits. You gotta change your eating habits. Nobody wants that letter, right?

There’s different ways that people could deal with something like this, right? They completely just try to avoid it and ignore it. Okay. I’m gonna bury that letter under some paperwork. I’m gonna roll it through the shredder. I’m gonna pretend my doctor didn’t say that I’m gonna live in this happy place of denial.

And then of course, where does that lead you? That lead you to continue to be in a state of unhealth? And people do this with OCD, like, ah, nah, it’s, it’s probably not OCD, it’s probably, I’m just a little weird. Even though it’s causing all these problems in your relationships and in your life. Oh no, it’s not a problem.

Everything’s good. Live in that denial and not actually deal with what’s going on or the complete. Opposite extreme. On the other end of the extreme of that is, oh no, so and so relative died from complications of diabetes and now I’m gonna be just like them and I’m just on this path and it’s my destiny and fate.

I’m about to die. I mean, just going through all of these worst case scenarios that they could imagine. Could go down a road of, Hey, I’ve gotta fix everything and completely overhaul everything that I’m doing. Getting like super obsessed about your health, and that lasts for about a week and then you just are in the corner of a closet somewhere eating Oreos.

Overwhelmed with life. And these are all things that I’ve seen as ways of people dealing with stress information, right? But what mindfulness allows you to do is it allows you to sit with that test result and say, okay, this is rough right now. Like at a very face value. This is not what I wanted to hear.

Maybe I have some shame coming up from past choices. Maybe I do feel anxious about what the future holds. Okay. Let me just take a minute to take stock of my actual experience that I’m having with this information right now as I’m taking it in. And then once you can sit with that and say, okay, well here we are.

I can’t go back and change the past. There is no point in me freaking out about the future because this is what practicing really being present is like it was actually going on today. It doesn’t mean you never plan for anything, and it doesn’t mean that you never evaluate based on past experience. And that’s a misnomer that a lot of people have about mindfulness.

They think well. It’s just impractical to live in the moment all the time. Carrie, I have to plan for things. Okay, totally fine. I have plans too. Not a problem. I have plans for personal life goals. I have plans for my business. Mindfulness doesn’t say don’t make plans. Certainly when we found out about Steve’s diagnosis, it was like, Hey, let’s get in a one story house that’s gonna be the best bet for us a long-term moving forward.

Find someplace where we can plant down and settle into and not have to worry about like weird split level stair stuff. Nothing wrong with planning. However, oftentimes what happens is if we spend a lot of time in the future with many people dealing with OCD do right thinking all these horrible things are going to happen to me, or I am secretly this horrible person and nobody’s found out about it yet, but somehow at some point there’s gonna be some like tipping point, snapping point, whatever you wanna call it, and everyone’s gonna know that I’m this horrible, awful person that hurts other people, which is of course.

Not the reality of what’s going on, but if you can recognize that those are futuristic thoughts that OCD is taking you down and you bring yourself back to, hmm, what’s actually happening in the present, that that can be really helpful. What’s actually going on in the here and now, and you’re not borrowing this past regret.

And that’s where really limiting. The emotional distress level, because we’re only having to deal with the emotions of what’s actually happening in the present moment and knowing that we can sit with reality. It’s not gonna kill us. It’s not always gonna feel good. Mindfulness, I think sometimes people are like, oh, I can’t relax.

I can’t calm down, I can’t settle. I can’t do these things. I’m no good at that kind of stuff. First of all, you’re not good at anything you haven’t practiced. I can promise you that unless you just have natural skills and abilities. However, even people with natural skills and abilities go out and practice what they’re good at so that they can become better at it.

We all need to practice things. That is a lie that we would like to believe is that we should just automatically be good at things and not have to ever work for it. That’s not life. Sorry. You can develop these skill sets, which by the way, society doesn’t teach you because society has us all sorts of distracted in a thousand different directions.

Multitasking to the hilt. People even multitask when they relaxed. Now, I don’t know if you notice that it used to be you just sat down and had dinner, but now people sit down, have dinner in front of the TV while they’re like phones going off, and then they’re trying to answer the text from Aunt Susie.

Oh no, I forgot. Like I have this reminder popping up on my phone about my kid has a school project tomorrow that I didn’t buy. The Elmer’s group. I mean, just constant distractions and all over the place with our minds. So if we practice slowing down, turning some of that off, just sitting and eating, that is a great mindfulness practice.

Just sit and eat. Don’t turn on a podcast. Don’t turn on the news station. Don’t get all distracted by their things. Especially if this would benefit your health sometimes. Right? Because when we’re all sorts of distracted, we end up maybe eating more or not really paying attention to when we’re actually full.

So just noticing what is it like to sit with this food? What is it like to smell it, taste it, chew it. It’s the texture like, and really enjoying that moment and sinking into it versus being super distracted. That’s just one way to practice. You don’t have to do that all the time. Certainly, there’s plenty of times that I eat and do other things.

But the point is, if we’re always eating and doing other things, we never have this ability to slow down and see what’s actually going on with us internally, physically, mentally, emotionally, in mindfulness, you can really look at noticing things without becoming absorbed by them, because with OCD, there’s this tendency to just.

Automatically get absorbed in a thought or automatically get absorbed in an emotion or automatically get absorbed in a particular story that your brain is telling you that may or may not be true. So when you create this like space of just being curious and kind of noticing what’s going on, instead of immediately judging, this is something that Christians are really good at, unfortunately, right?

We’re immediately good at going bad thought, stop, shut it down, captivate, kick it to the curb. Whereas what we’re trying to do with OCD is saying, this is an intrusive thought. I know that it’s coming from somewhere. I don’t need to latch into it. I don’t need to say this means I’m a horrible person because I had this intrusive thought.

It just means it’s an intrusive thought and I can learn how to deal with these differently. I can learn to disengage from them and let them pass by. I don’t have to latch onto every thought that comes into my mind. I don’t have to assume it’s from me, the devil in OCD. I could just say, okay, that’s not a thought that I’m not gonna hop on that train today.

I’m gonna let it move by. One thing I’m seeing more and more that I wanna talk about is that oftentimes people with OCD don’t have the skills to deal with day-to-day stressors. So if we go to try to take off this layer of OCD and we still don’t know how to deal with the stress of relationships, someone’s upset at us, someone might be thinking about us sideways, and I’m concerned with that.

Dealing with the stress of parenting or being in a marriage or a boss that may not like you. Like these are all just things that happen on a day-to-day basis. Grief and loss. If we don’t know how to deal with these things, then that’s going to create problems and it’s going to create a tendency for you to go back and grab onto that OCD because it’s familiar.

So if I don’t have healthy relationship skills, or if I don’t have a healthy way to cope with things that are outside of my control, it’s very easy to go into a rumination cycle about. Okay, how do I get that person to like me, and maybe if I do this differently with the boss, then that could do that. Or maybe then I’m going into obsessions about the boss and creating this whole type of story that’s not real.

All of these things I have seen happen, and I don’t think that this gets talked about enough in terms of OCD recovery either because it’s just complicated, for lack of a better way to say it. These are not. Cut and dry, one size fits all type of situations that I’m seeing. I mean, I don’t know what other people are seeing.

I can’t speak to that, but since I’ve gotten into the OCD world, I have realized how complicated treatment can be. And so cookie cutter approaches are just not going to work for people. You’ve gotta look at, do you have the stress management skills, the distress tolerance skills to be able to handle day-to-day life?

And then that’s one set of skills that mindfulness can certainly help with. And then do you have the OCD set of skills to be able to deal with the obsessions and compulsions as they arise? Now those of course can work together in terms of mindfulness. I think mindfulness can help you with both sides of that because mindfulness can help you reduce the distress of what you’re experiencing in the present by being able to kind of just take it a little bit more at face value.

And it can also help you deal with some of the shame maybe that you’re experiencing related to OCD. It can help you become more aware of the things how OCD shows up. So this is a huge piece of why I believe that mindfulness and ICBT can work together. If you don’t know what ICBT is stands for inference based cognitive behavioral therapy.

And what that does is it really just kind of pulls the curtain back. Of what’s actually going on in OCD, how you get into these obsessional reasoning processes, how the obsessional reasoning process is different from the everyday reasoning process. A lot of this information is mapped out in massive detail in resolving OCD volumes one and two.

Designed to be a little bit more comprehensive than the original ICBT treatment manual, which was skinny, in my opinion, for a treatment manual. The best analogy I have for what ICBT does is that it’s a little bit like the Wizard of Oz. If you have ever seen that movie, they go in and it’s like this big green guy like, oh, oh, I am the great and powerful oz.

And it looks super scary and there’s all these lights and slow coming up. And really when you pull back the curtain, like there’s this little guy in there running the show, and OCD is like that. It causes you to be super scared. It’s really loud. It’s obnoxious. But once you understand how it operates and you can pull back that curtain, you’re like really ocd.

Like, oh, okay. Like I don’t need to worry about that. You’re just making a big deal out of nothing. This is a bunch of smoke and lights and what’s actually happening in the here and out. Doesn’t call for all of that. Alert, like threat detection and going off. We don’t need to engage with you like we’re just a little guy back here.

That’s what OCD does. But if you’re not aware or tuned into what they call sense data, then that’s gonna be really hard to utilize some of that in the ICBT recovery process. If you don’t know how OCD shows up for you, like there’s this concept called carrier thoughts that really gets you, like suck you into the imagination.

Resolving OCD Volume two talks about. So you really have to be able to slow down your thought process enough to identify some of those carrier thoughts that are getting you over into this Imagine worst case scenario. It’s horrible. It’s definitely gonna happen, versus it’s a possibility like many things are possible in life.

And ident being able to identify some of the thoughts and evidences behind your obsessional doubt that you have. If you practice mindfulness and if you’re able to create like in a metacognitive way, examine your thought process, it’s gonna be much easier for you to implement these ICBT skills because a lot of times people just really don’t have that awareness.

Of what justifications even they’re using for their OCD. They’ll say things like, I don’t know. It just could happen and it’s really scary and I have to give into it. So being able to slow down to settle and say, okay. I’ve been thinking this way for a long time. How did I get here to this point? What’s behind all of this?

What’s behind that curtain? That’s why I believe that these two things can go together really well because it allows you to also deal with the emotions in the body, sensations that come up with OCD, which are legitimate. OCD causes things to feel true that aren’t true, or to feel real. That aren’t real.

This is addressed as phantom sensations. Once again, if you’re initially, you’re going to be like, oh no, it’s a great and powerful as, oh no, it’s really scary. But as you go through this process, it may still be scary at times. Like, oh, that obsession is still scary. But I understand why the fear is there. I understand why the urgency is there.

Now I have greater awareness of how to disengage and trust that those feelings and those body sensations are gonna dissipate. As I disengage, like from this obsessional reasoning process, and how can I get back to what is actually going on in the here and now? So there’s internal sense of data, like your emotions, your body sensations, your true desires, your intentions, like your heart process, and also external senses like, are my hands actually clean?

Can I look at my hands and see? Okay, there’s no dirt on them. I know I just washed them. I use soap. I did a typical hand washing routine, but OCD says, oh no, but your hands are so sticky, or there may be germs on them that you can’t see. So then you feel like unclean in some way, shape, form, and you go back and wash your hands versus saying, you know what?

They may not feel clean. I know, like looking at them, smelling them, et cetera. They are clean. I can move forward with the rest of my day-to-day life. I think the Christian integration of all of this is that God has given us sense data. God can reveal to us what the true desires of our hearts are. God knows our heart better than anyone else does.

Also, there’s lots of things in the scripture that talk about be still and know that I am God. There’s a verse that says in James, life is but a vapor. And many of you are saying, Hey, next week or next month, I’m going to do this or that. But no one really knows how long we have, and that’s where yes, planning for the future is not bad.

But we also are somewhat instructed to live day by day to ask God for our daily bread. That there is a time and season and a purpose for everything under heaven. So learning to be with God, to be present is a practice that many of us, unfortunately, are not learning in Christian churches unless you’re coming from a very contemplative type of faith.

We’re all about head knowledge sometimes, and we’ve amassed large amount of head knowledge, but it never gets down to our heart and never sinks in to practice. Once again, these are things that you have to practice. Just sit with God sometime and see what that is like for you. Is that thought super uncomfortable?

What is it like to be in this moment and know that God is here with me? Maybe something that feels positive for you and it may not, depending on your background and your beliefs about God or things that you have been taught. Things maybe that OCD has convinced you of about God. I want you to know that we have this program called Empowered Mind, and it hardly ever goes on sale, but it is going on sale for Memorial Day.

Hop on our email list, carrie bach.com to subscribe to the newsletter and you can find out more about that. This is a Christian integration of. ICBT, and I have thrown a lot of mindfulness skills in there as well. We have a mindfulness practice for each of the 12 weeks. I’ve also included workbook pages that we’ve created of other ways to practice mindfulness in your day-to-day life.

That workbook is gonna be out as a standalone product as well for the first time, and I’m so excited about that because I have applied these principles specifically in terms of the real self and who God has created you to be. And how you can kind of look at some of these materials through a Christian lens.

The workbook itself is not designed to be comprehensive. It’s designed to be taken with the course, but it may help you if you are already seeing an ICBT therapist or if you are an ICBT therapist that’s working with a lot of Christians. Wanting to incorporate biblical materials with your clients.

Thanks so much for hanging out with me today. I hope that you will join us next week for another episode on Christian Faith and ocd. Until next time, may you be comforted by God’s great love for you. Christian Faith in OCD is a production of by the Well Counseling. This podcast is for informational purposes only, and should not be a substitute for seeking mental health treatment in your area.

222. Can AI help with OCD?

Written by Carrie Bock on May 5, 2026. Posted in OCD, Podcast Episode.

In this episode, Carrie explores the concerns of using AI for OCD and shares practical ways to use it wisely while staying grounded in truth, community, and your identity in Christ.

Episode Highlights:

• Why using AI during a mental health crisis can be harmful and what to do instead

• How AI can become a form of reassurance seeking that feeds the OCD cycle

• The ways AI may unintentionally reinforce negative thought patterns

• Why human connection and godly community are essential for healing

• Practical ways to use AI as a tool without replacing real support

• How to stay rooted in truth and your identity in Christ while navigating technology

Episode Summary:

Should Christians with OCD use AI for mental health support?

I have been noticing how often AI shows up in conversations about productivity, business growth, and even mental health tools, and I have used it myself in simple ways for my podcast and content. But when it comes to OCD, I find myself asking a more thoughtful question: is this actually supporting healing, or could it be quietly pulling us away from the kind of help God designed us to receive?

Can AI make OCD symptoms worse without you realizing it?

One of the concerns I see in the mental health space is how easily AI can turn into a form of reassurance seeking, which we know keeps the OCD cycle going. When you are already feeling anxious and reach for quick answers, it can feel helpful in the moment, but over time it may keep you stuck in patterns that God is gently inviting you to step out of.

Why does AI feel comforting but not truly healing?

AI is designed to be affirming, quick, and easy to engage with, and that can feel like a relief when your mind is overwhelmed. But true healing often involves being lovingly challenged, gaining new perspective, and sitting with discomfort in a safe way, and that is something technology simply cannot fully provide.

Can AI replace therapy, Christian community, or real relationships?

From both a faith and mental health perspective, the answer here is important. God created us for connection, for relationship, and for being known by others, not just interacting with something that reflects back what we give it. When we begin to rely on AI in place of people, we may miss the depth of healing that comes through safe, supportive relationships.

How can you use AI in a healthy way with OCD?

I do believe there are practical ways to use AI responsibly, especially for things like reducing stress, organizing your life, or finding general information. When used with intention and boundaries, it can support your overall well-being, but it should never replace the deeper work of recovery, therapy, and spiritual growth.

How does your identity in Christ shape the way you use technology?

At the heart of this conversation is something much deeper than AI. It is about where you go for truth, peace, and reassurance. As Christians, we are invited to root our identity in Christ, not in quick answers or external tools, and to trust that God is present with us even in the uncertainty.

If you have been wondering whether AI is helping or hurting your OCD recovery, this episode will walk you through what to watch for and how to move forward with wisdom. Take a few minutes to listen, you may begin to see both your technology use and your healing journey in a new light.

Transcript

Everyone is talking about AI these days. If you’re online at all, it’s like, use AI for this. Ask AI that. Use AI in your business. You’re gonna get left behind. That’s all the content that I end up consuming on the business side, and we do utilize it some in the podcast in terms of. Writing blog posts to help people find the podcast in terms of turning this content into some social media stuff that I don’t have time to micromanage everything.

So there are some uses that ways AI is being utilized. But specifically today I wanna talk about what about if you have OCD, should you use AI or can you use AI to help with OCD? I think it’s really important that we talk about this ’cause regardless of how you feel about ai, some people are very anti ai, feel like it’s using up water resources.

Other people feel like it’s making us dumber. Other people have certainly ethical concerns and all of those things are valid. I’m not here to address all of that today. That’s not the scope of this podcast, but I do wanna talk about it. In terms of the mental health space, because ai, whether we like it or not, is not going away.

I wanna talk from a counseling perspective because what counselors are seeing and reporting is that more clients are coming in saying that they are using AI for their mental health. Whether that is to track symptoms, to find ways to cope with what they’re dealing with, to gather more information. And I think that this is very concerning in terms of some things related to OCD.

I’m gonna restate some of that. I first, I wanna talk about the mental health concerns that I see in regards to using ai. Number one is that AI should not be used in a time of mental health crisis. That is not what it’s for. So if you are contemplating suicide, for example, there are lawsuits going through the courts right now from teens who are using ai, and it did not flag or notify anyone that they were dealing with suicidal thoughts, and obviously that’s very problematic.

Unfortunately, when we talk about things like regulations, what I often see is that bad things have to happen in order for regulations to occur. I think that’s really sad. I think that we should be able to predict somewhat some of these things that are potentially problematic whenever we create new technology.

I would hope that someone would give the foresight or the forethought to think, Hmm, maybe this could happen, or what if someone discusses this? How are we going to handle it? So if you are actively suicidal, do not DM your favorite Instagram therapist. Do not DM me. Do not go on ai. What you need to do is call the emergency number in the us.

That would be either 9 1 1 or 9, 8, 8. If you’re in another country, those numbers may be different, but I’m sure that you have the ability to access them. So don’t use AI if you are actively in a mental health crisis, suicidal, homicidal, et cetera. Now, the second concern that I have is that. AI has the potential to actually make your OCD worse.

So I even asked AI about this, about people using AI for their mental health, and here’s what it said. I could reinforce the OCD cycle by becoming a digital compulsion. And if you’re just asking for reassurance over and over, then that can become compulsive, right? Just the same thing as Googling. Very similar.

So if you’re feeling uncomfortable and then you find yourself like reaching to talk to some type of chat bot or ai, then that is gonna be a problem, and that could keep you kind of like going back. Of course, we know all of these digital things that are created. Whether it’s social media, whether it’s ai, they’re all about keeping you on it longer.

And so if you have used some of these models, you’ll notice that they always give you some type of prompt afterwards. It’s like you ask your question, you give it the information that it might need to know to answer what you’re looking for, and then it’ll say, Hey, and now. I can do this for you or would you like me to show you that?

And it just kind of continues the whole like usage cycle. So if you have obviously propensities to become obsessed with something, shall we say like this is a potential danger that you might run into, you just want to be aware of when you’re utilizing ai. Ultimately, that keeps you from doing the hard work that you need to do in your recovery to resist compulsions, to make sure that you don’t have just the super easy access to digital reassurance.

One thing that I’ve seen with clients who have given me information, say from AI, that they have been ruminating about giving it a lot of information. Here’s what’s been going on with me, is that it seemed to just reinforce the story that they’ve already been telling themselves or reinforce their negative process instead of being able to challenge them to think differently.

This is huge because essentially going back to, they want you to stay on there. AI has been trained to be very affirming of you. Never once have I put information in there about my business or about plans for marketing or things that I wanna do. Never once has it said, Carrie, this is a really bad idea and maybe you shouldn’t do that.

This is where lovely humans come in and people that love you, and hopefully really good mental health support because we don’t always need to be affirmed, and this is a huge piece with ai. Sometimes we need to be told that we’re wrong. Sometimes we need to be told, Hey, if you’ve thought about this over here, maybe there’s a side of this that you’re not seeing.

Concern number three, AI has very limited knowledge of you. It’s only working off the information that you are giving it. And quite frankly, we’re biased about our own selves. And sometimes it takes someone else to be able to say, Hey, I’m seeing this pattern with you. Have you noticed that? Have you noticed that every time you come into the therapy room, it’s like your head is down, you’re in this like crunched position with your shoulders all in and really may be a position of shame.

Have you ever noticed that? What would it feel like for you to actually move your shoulders back and create this confident posture? Can you tell me about the last time you felt confident and just get your body in that position Physiologically. These are the kind of things that can happen in therapy.

These are the kinds of conversations that can occur, especially in trauma processing. This can be incredibly powerful. I’ve had many times where clients were almost in a, just a very enclosed position or a position of. Whether it was being inferior or just kind of this fetal helpless position. And then as they’re moving through the trauma and moving through the processing of it, they’re able to get into a more confident stance.

And that can be just incredibly powerful for your brain and body to go, okay, now that I’m in the here and now, things are different. I was helpless or I was powerless in that situation, but now I’m not. There are other patterns that your therapist might point out such as, Hey, every time you come in here, you’re complaining about what’s going on around you with everybody else.

I know I’ve had clients in the past that have been very overwhelmed maybe by things that were happening in the world. Your therapist may need to point out that every time you get close to something painful, you make a joke about it. Some of you’re laughing because you know that’s you right now. Humor can be really helpful, but we also have to learn how to deal with sadness too.

Therapists can also see incongruencies in between. What you tell them is important to you and what you’re actually doing. So someone may say, Hey, my mother is elderly and in a nursing home, and I think it’s important for me to go visit her and spend time with her. And then later you find out they’re working 60 hours a week and you’re like, Hey, how is that going with, how is the balance of seeing your mother in the nursing home and.

Working this many hours, and I’ll say, oh, well, yeah, I haven’t really been to see my mom lately and it really bothers me. Now I have this layer of guilt because you say, okay, well, so something’s incongruent here. You’re saying that you want something or that you value something, but you’re not actually moving towards that.

And so how can we shift or change that, or what would that look like? You need to talk to your boss about your workload. Do you need to get some more people to help you on this project? It is a short season of work where you just need to finish something. Is it a long season? What is this looking like for you?

And you can actually problem solve and work through some of those things. Unfortunately, I think that this is only gonna get worse where we’re going to start seeing usages of ai, where it’s a substitute for friendships, therapists, or other human connection. And the reality is computers just can’t do that for us spiritually.

We know that we were created for human connection. This goes all the way back to the Garden of Eden, Genesis two 18. It was not good for a man to be alone. AI is a completely one-sided relationship. AI isn’t going to get mad at you if you don’t talk to it on a regular basis like a friend might. I’ll never have to resolve any conflict.

AI is quite agreeable with you. We all have a desire to be fully known and fully loved, but trying to get these needs met by AI is like biting into one of those hollow Easter rabbits. It looks really good on the outside, but once you bite into it, there’s really a lack of substance. I’ll give you an example.

Just from my own life, there was a habit that I was trying to break and I thought, maybe I’ll try this out with ai. Maybe I will help it use it more as a tracking tool. So every time that I engage with this habit that I don’t want to, I’ll type it into AI and it will just keep some kind of spreadsheet for me, and that way I don’t have to do the extra work.

Right? Trying to find shortcuts here. Okay. And then it started to get really weird because AI was saying, no judgment here. And I was like, you’re a computer. You couldn’t judge me if you really wanted to. This is very bizarre. And so I stopped. I was like, this is not a good road to go down. This is not a healthy road.

So in short summary, don’t use AI to be your friend. Find safe people to be vulnerable with. Give them time and space to blossom and grow. Real relationships take work. Real relationships can’t be one-sided and there’s risk there. And I think that’s why so many people find AI appealing, right? Because there’s no risk for them to get on there and use a chat bot or an app or something like that.

We have to learn how to communicate with humans, even if it’s super uncomfortable, even if it makes you anxious, even if you feel like, I don’t know what I’m doing here. I think so many people are in that boat for a variety of reasons. We can’t have true connection with other people without vulnerability.

And with ai, you may feel like you’re being vulnerable because you’re talking to it about maybe vulnerable things, but if you’re not really risking rejection, you are not really being vulnerable, and that’s the thing that I want you to think about. How could you potentially use AI responsibly in regards to your OCD?

Well, perhaps you could use it to reduce shame by receiving general OCD education. When you learn about OCD about patterns, about other common struggles that other Christians with OCD experience, you’re gonna feel less stigma, less shame. Uh, that’s one of the goals of this podcast, because you realize that you aren’t the only one dealing with this.

And when you feel like or believe, Hey, nobody else understands this, nobody else is going through this OCD sometimes just feels weird and it makes you feel like an outsider because people aren’t talking about these types of struggles. It’s not like going to the gym and talking with some other moms and they’re all talking about their anxiety.

Like that’s a socially acceptable thing to struggle with or. Oh, you know, I’ve been dealing with some postpartum depression. More people are talking about that. It’s like, oh, okay. Yeah, I went through some of that with my kid and it’s this quote, acceptable struggle. But no one is going to the gym around their mom friends and saying, yeah, I had a horrific thought about harming my dog this morning, and I hit all the knives from myself to make sure that I wouldn’t hurt anybody.

People aren’t opening up about those types of things. And if you’ve listened to some of our personal story episodes, you probably. Just felt a sigh of relief with maybe some things that you could relate to or that you’ve been through, and that’s what we hope for those episodes is, hey, we have found some people who are willing to talk about hard things and different struggles that they’ve had, whether that’s with obsessions and compulsions or with spiritual struggles.

And you know what? It’s okay. Like I can be a Christian and also be on the process of struggling towards healing and recovery, and this is just part of it. Sometimes it’s messy and doesn’t always look great. Once again, like the human connection is so important for us. Maybe consider using AI to lighten your stress load.

We know that stress makes OCD worse every time, and so are there ways that potentially you could use ai? To reduce your stress level in order to help with your OCD recovery. So for example, and these are things that are not specifically related to OCD, but if finances are stressing you out, if you feel like, I just don’t even know how to make a budget, you can upload bank statements or create a preliminary budget.

Have it help you create a budget, have it look at subscriptions maybe that you could potentially cut out, Hey, if you cut out this subscription, you’re gonna save $15 a month, which adds up to this many dollars a year. I’m not gonna do that math in my head, but maybe there are some things that expenses that you don’t realize that are adding up over time and you think, oh, it’s just $5 here, or $10 there, or $20 here, and those things can really add up.

Maybe you’re struggling with A DHD as well as OCD. I know that we’ve heard from some of our listeners that are struggling with both of those things, and so maybe you’re trying to develop things like healthy routines in your life, trying not to be time blind. You can work with the AI on. Mapping out a healthy morning routine.

Many people are using AI to help increase their physical health, whether that’s asking for quick and easy, healthy recipes for breakfast, and then if you find some recipes you like, you can have it create the grocery list for you without having to do all of that manually. It can give you workouts. You tell it what equipment you have and how much time you have.

It can point you to specific YouTube workout recommendations. All of these things don’t necessarily help directly with the OCD, but they can lighten some of that stress load in order to help you feel a little bit better to be able to have some time and energy to focus on your OCD recovery. I know that for me, one way I’ve used AI personally is with travel.

Obviously travel can be very stressful and trying to get everything ready, there’s always something that I end up forgetting and I’m like, Ugh. I didn’t pack that. It wasn’t on the list somehow and the last couple times that I’ve gone anywhere, I’ve told the AI like, Hey, this is where I’m going. It knows the time of the year, it knows the weather.

I tell it what I will be doing. It says, okay, maybe you can consider packing this for this specific purpose. I tell it things that I tend to forget all of the time, so it will tell me, Hey, check these things the morning of to make sure that you have them. And it has really reduced a lot of my travel stress.

Not that I travel a ton or anything, but it has helped in terms of getting ready for conferences and getting ready for family trips. Another way that AI may be able to help you with OCD is in terms of finding treatment help. Maybe you can put in there specific things that you’re looking for in a therapist.

Say, I’m looking for a therapist with current openings. It may or may not be able to determine that, but you could say to advertises on their website that they are a Christian who provides this specific type of therapy, who is within 20 miles of this major city, or who provides therapy online? It’s usually a little bit easier to find than specific regions.

If you are struggling to find help and find treatment with your OCD, I just want you to know that help and support is out there. I have had people use AI to help find me, uh, especially specifically in looking at intensive therapy sessions, and that’s been interesting and really encouraging. I never thought that that would be occurring.

But you just never know what’s gonna happen, and we have a lot of information or resources on the website about a variety of different things. At this point in time that I’m recording, I’m looking at complete revamp of the website. So by the time this comes out, probably won’t have fully occurred yet, but it may be in process of being revamped and.

If you’re on our email list, you will be the first to know when things get mapped out. I really want to make it much easier for people to find resources for specific topics that they’re looking for. With over 200 episodes, obviously we’ve recorded about a lot of things. With over 200 episodes, I’ve recorded about a lot of different topics with different professionals and.

People will say, Hey, can you answer this question or talk about this? And we’re able to say, yeah, go back. That’s on episode 202, or whatever it is. Or you may wanna check out episode 195. I’m just making up numbers. I don’t even know what are on those episodes. But the point is that we do have a lot of resources and I would like to make those easier for people to find.

We do currently have a search feature. On the podcast breakdown, but we’re gonna make it even easier than that. Have different topical listing search. I think that it’s gonna take advanced website knowledge from someone to be able to make that happen, but I’m just believing that it is gonna happen at some point or another so that if you’re looking for specific things, that the website will be a really great resource hub for you to find previous episodes that might be able to help and support you on your OCD recovery journey.

Certainly. I also have a great self-help course called Empower to Mind and Hint, it is going on sale for Memorial Day weekend, so if you’re not on our email list, you can go to kerry bach.com and sign up for the newsletter. Please make sure that you do that so that you do not miss out on that sale. This course has been a great opportunity for people who are on this bridge of looking to get into therapy and, hey, maybe I can’t find a therapist in my area.

Maybe the therapists in my area, they’re all full and they have a two to three month waiting list. You can get through the course in three months. And then once you’re able to get into therapy, kind of, if there are loose ends that you need to wrap up or you need more personalized support for, that’s a great opportunity.

You’ll have saved yourself time and money and energy and. You’ll be able to take all of that information from the workbook, the things that you’ve been working through, bring that and have someone else look at it for you. As I’m in the process of recording this, we are also revamping the workbook, and that is gonna be a great standalone resource if you already have an ICBT therapist and you’re looking to.

Apply this more to your Christian walk and who God has created you to be. Really focusing and leaning in on some Christian examples of how scrupulosity often plays out or other themes, and looking at how to get in touch with your real self from a Christian lens, which I think is absolutely huge. So definitely check out the course if you are looking for options.

Need further help and support on your OCD journey. If you’ve been trusted at all to AI or using AI for reassurance seeking, we can stop that today. We can hang that up and be get to a healthier place in your OCD recovery. Thanks so much for joining me today, and come back next week where we’ll have more of these conversations.

221. Your Scrupulosity Question Answered

Written by Carrie Bock on April 28, 2026. Posted in OCD, Podcast Episode.

In this episode, Carrie answers listener-submitted questions from email and a recent survey about scrupulosity to help you better understand it and respond in healthier ways.

Episode Highlights:

Carrie’s answers to listener questions about intrusive thoughts and scrupulosity, drawn from real experiences shared through email and survey responses
How to recognize intrusive or critical thoughts as OCD, not your true beliefs
Why scrupulosity targets what matters most, including your relationship with God
How to identify the core fear beneath obsessive doubts
The difference between God’s voice and fear-based thoughts

In this episode, I’m answering your questions about scrupulosity and intrusive thoughts that were submitted through email and a recent survey. If you’re a Christian struggling with OCD, especially distressing thoughts about God, you’re not alone, and this conversation is here to help you better understand what’s happening in your mind and how to respond in a healthier way.

Does anyone else struggle with intrusive or critical thoughts about God?

One of the most common questions I received is about having unwanted, intrusive thoughts that feel critical or even blasphemous toward God. If that’s you, I want you to know this is a common experience in scrupulosity. In this episode, I begin to unpack why these thoughts happen and how to recognize them as OCD, not your true beliefs.

How do I handle different interpretations of scripture without falling into OCD fear?

Another question we explore is how to navigate different or stricter interpretations of scripture without spiraling into anxiety. If you’ve ever worried about getting your faith “wrong,” we talk about how OCD can latch onto these fears and how to start shifting out of that pattern.

How can I tell the difference between God’s voice and OCD thoughts?

This is such an important question for many Christians with OCD. If you’ve felt stuck trying to figure out whether a thought is from God or from fear, I share some gentle guidance to help you begin discerning the difference so you can move toward peace instead of staying in that mental loop.

Throughout this episode, I offer simple, practical ways to respond to intrusive thoughts without getting pulled deeper into the cycle of scrupulosity. My hope is that you walk away feeling less alone, more grounded, and reminded that God’s heart for you is peace, not confusion or fear.

220. Getting Unstuck from Spiritual Mental Rituals

Written by Carrie Bock on April 22, 2026. Posted in OCD, Podcast Episode.

In this episode, I talk about how spiritual mental rituals are actually mental compulsions in OCD, and five steps to help you recognize these patterns and begin stepping out of them.

Episode Highlights:

The connection between spiritual mental rituals and compulsions in OCD
Ways to become more aware of when these patterns are happening in your mind
Practical strategies to create distance from intrusive thoughts through mindfulness and thought diffusion
The underlying fears and “feared possible self” that drive spiritual mental rituals
Why OCD’s reasoning process keeps you stuck and what helps you step out of it

Episode Summary:

Why do I feel stuck even though I’m praying more and trying harder?

I hear from so many of you who are doing everything you know to do spiritually. You are praying, rebuking thoughts, quoting Scripture, and trying to replace negative thoughts, yet you still feel stuck. That can be incredibly discouraging because your heart is in the right place. At the same time, some of these responses, like repetitive praying or trying to cancel out a thought, may actually be mental rituals that keep OCD going instead of bringing peace.

Why are mental rituals in OCD so hard to recognize?

These patterns often become automatic, which makes them easy to miss. You may be responding to intrusive thoughts all day without realizing how much energy it takes. Many people describe it as a quiet background murmur in their mind. As this loop repeats, it strengthens, which is why awareness is such an important first step.

How should Christians respond to intrusive thoughts?

Many Christians feel they need to respond to every thought right away. When an intrusive thought shows up, it can feel urgent and important. However, that urgency is often part of how OCD keeps you engaged in the cycle. There is a different way to relate to your thoughts that allows you to stay grounded in your faith without being pulled into anxiety.

Why does OCD make me feel like something is wrong with me spiritually?

OCD often targets your relationship with God, making you feel like you are not doing enough or that something is off. These thoughts can feel real, but they are often rooted in a feared possible self rather than your true identity in Christ.

What is actually keeping the OCD cycle going?

There is a deeper reasoning process that pulls you away from the present and into a stream of anxious possibilities. Without recognizing this, it is easy to stay stuck even when you are trying your best to do the right thing.

If you have been feeling worn down by intrusive thoughts and mental rituals, this is not an episode you want to miss.

Listen now to begin finding peace and share this with someone who needs encouragement today.

Transcript

Repetitive praying, rebuking thoughts, quoting scripture or a short phrase, or intentionally thinking a positive thought to neutralize a negative thought. What do all of these things have in common? They are all mental rituals in OCD. Today on the Scrupulosity series, we’re gonna be talking about five steps to get unstuck from spiritual mental rituals.

Welcome OCD Warriors to the Christian Faith and OCD podcast where we are all about reducing shame and stigma of struggling with OCD as a Christian sharing hopeful stories. And replacing uncertainty with faith as you develop practical tools for greater peace. I’m Carrie Bock, Christ follower, wife, mom, and licensed professional counselor in Tennessee.

I pray you are blessed by today’s episode. Number one is be aware of when you are doing it. If you’re gonna change any type of behavior, you have to become aware of how and when it is happening. You wanna know what the triggers are to this mental compulsive ritual. You probably already know that, but sometimes when you’ve been doing something for so long, you don’t even realize that you’re doing it.

It’s just almost happening kind of in the back corner of your head. I’ve met a lot of people with OCD who tell me there’s kind of like this murmur almost in the background going on in their mind. You may be responding at times and you’re not even fully aware of how much time you’re taking to respond to these types of things.

Ultimately, neurons that fire together, wire together, so the more time you engage in this obsession compulsion loop. The stronger it gets and the faster that goes. One thing you can do here is to practice mindfulness. If you’re not familiar with mindfulness, mindfulness is a component of acceptance and commitment therapy.

And what it involves is focusing intentionally on the present moment with a sense of awareness, acceptance, curiosity over judgment. And by doing so, you’re helping yourself be able to slow down, be aware, and take stock of what’s actually going on right now. Many people in today’s culture are moving at a hundred miles per hour.

Our brains are taking in all kinds of information and we’re just moving through life, not really as present as we could be, and mindfulness helps us get back to this sense of being present. I believe this is a very important component for us spiritually as Christians. Because we need to be able to sit in God’s presence and hear what he has to say to us.

And if we don’t slow down enough to even do that and learn to quiet our minds, learn to just let all of the dust settle, then it’s gonna be really hard for us to be able to connect even in our devotional moments that we have with him. Number two, we wanna create a distance, create some separation between you and your thoughts.

You need to understand that you are not the sum of your thoughts. You don’t act on all of your thoughts. We have thoughts all the time that we don’t pay any attention to, and we’re like, oh, that was kind of weird. Or. Oh no, I really shouldn’t do that. Or, Ooh, I wanna say that, but that would really be a bad idea.

Right now the filter comes in, right? We don’t need to super align ourselves with our thoughts and say, oh, well, because I had this thought, then that means something about me. Or create some type of additional meaning that doesn’t need to be there to create this distance. You can do a couple different things.

One, you can look at it from more of a metacognitive approach of, I am having an obsession right now. Or I always say, even if you can’t stop the compulsion, you could say in a mindful sense, I am engaging in a compulsion right now. This lets you and your brain know. Hey, I know what’s going on right now.

Even if I’m not in a place to combat it or stop it, I know that I am on this cycle of obsession and compulsion. That awareness piece, as we talked about is important. Another exercise you can utilize to create some distance between you and your thoughts is called thought diffusion. This is something I learned from dialectical behavioral therapy.

We borrow from a variety of different things on the podcast because I think different therapeutic approaches have little snippets and pieces that can be helpful for OCD, and these are actually considered adjunct therapies. If you go onto io CDFs website, that’s how they would define like acceptance and commitment or.

Dialectical behavioral therapy. I believe they’re under the adjunct approaches, not entirely sure could be under secondary. In order to practice thought diffusion, you’re gonna do something like, imagine your thought is on a leaf, going down a stream, or imagine your thought is on a cloud in the sky.

Imagine your thought is on a car and you’re watching the cars pass by on the highway. And what this does is it allows you to really examine your thought and recognize that you don’t have to immediately get roped into it. Ruminate on it, figure it out, can be really great strategy for rumination to practice this.

It does take practice. It takes time to learn. So you can’t just do it once and think that you’re good to go, but when you do this and you kind of imagine these thoughts moving by, it lets you know, okay, I’m creating some separation between myself and the thought. I’m also noticing I don’t have to act on the thought right now, so that can keep you from compulsing.

I don’t have to immediately do anything about this right now, even though OCD is screaming, you really need to do something about this, and you need to do it right now because OCD is super urgent like that. But when you practice these exercises, you go, okay, I’m having this thought. I don’t have to continue to hold onto it.

I can train my brain. To be able to let the thought come and let the thought go out. Like I said, that takes some intentional practice. It’s not an easy one and done type of scenario. Number three, understand what is contributing to this fear. We know that with OCD, it convinces you that some things are true about yourself that are not true about yourself.

An inference-based cognitive behavioral therapy call this the feared possible self. It’s like if I don’t engage in these compulsions, if I don’t entertain these obsessions in these specific ways, could mean a variety of things. Could mean I’m negligent, could mean I don’t care about my spiritual life, this sense of carelessness.

It could mean that I’m going to be some kind of spiritually unclean, dirty if I don’t immediately rebuke this thought. So figuring out what that is, what the feared consequence is, what the feared possible self is, can be really helpful and beneficial because the feared possible self is a lie. People that are worried about being spiritually negligent are engaged in their spiritual life.

They’re engaged in spiritual practice. Even sometimes when it’s hard or even if you’re maybe avoiding certain spiritual practices, you still care about it. It’s still a value. It’s still on your mind as something you desire to engage in. So understanding that feared possible self is a false sense of self.

It’s not actually who you are. And then looking at what is the story that you’ve told yourself regarding what you have to do with these thoughts? Oftentimes, Christians are told by spiritual leaders, Hey, you’ve gotta take that thought captive and make it obedient to Christ. So anything that comes in their mind, they feel like they’ve gotta immediately pounce on it.

And deal with it. Like, oh, if it’s any kind of negative thought, of course we know that this is not helpful for OCD and actually just reinforces the whole obsessive compulsive cycle. So we’re trying to get out of that by recognizing that taking these thoughts captive means I need to let them alone so that they don’t continue to grow, multiply.

And become an even bigger issue than they are right now. If you believe the thoughts are some type of spiritual attack, it may be really hard for you to let them alone and not feel like you have to rebuke them. Really examining maybe some of the teachings that you’ve heard from spiritual leaders or the council that has been given to you can be really helpful in these types of scenarios.

What have you been told about your thought process and how to handle specifically intrusive thoughts? Maybe the people that you were going to, they may not have known this was OCD, or you may not have known it was OCD, so they weren’t able to provide you a really balanced, helpful Christian clinical standpoint of that.

Hello, that’s why we’re here. Welcome to the podcast. That’s what we’re hoping to do, provide that really great balance for you. Number four, and I think this is crucial if you’re following an ICBT path, is really understanding the inferential confusion, the obsessional reasoning process. If you read resolving OCD one and two, actually it’s covered in volume two.

It’s the OCD trifecta. Essentially where if you understand how you reasoned your way into OCD in this obsessional reasoning process and that you have an everyday reasoning process, it really helps you know how you can get out of that obsessional reasoning process and back into the everyday reasoning process.

In the obsessional reasoning process, I’m going to try to simplify it for you. It’s a little bit complicated and I love that there’s a bit of a depth to it because the more that you learn about it and read about it, the more that you can grow an understanding of it and start to see it in real time is essentially where you’re distrusting whatever the sense data is of the moment.

When we say sense data, we mean things like common sense. Your five senses, your sense of self, who you are. So let’s say I’m distrusting who I actually am. Then what happens? Well, step two of the process is this unchecked and boundless imagination. So I’ve closed the door to what’s actually happening right now.

And in doing so, it’s opened up this alternate door where the imagination runs wild, dumps a bunch of what ifs on there. Scary stuff that I feel like I’ve got to address creates this internal crisis. And then once you believe something or you believe like, okay, this is possible, this really could happen to me.

Then you start to justify it with facts and reasoning and logical arguments. Well, yeah, this could happen. And the reason I know that is because I read a news article on it, or I know somebody that that happened to, or I read this scripture and it seems to support this belief that I believe about God being harsh and not really caring about me, or I’m gonna use this scripture from the Old Testament to support the fact that I believe that God is.

Harsh and judging me right now, even though I’m saved. And even though when God looks at me, he sees the blood of Jesus, I’m gonna take something out of context and utilize it in that way. And you see this all the time in terms of people making arguments for a variety of different things in the world.

And you can find some people that. Very convinced of some things that aren’t true, right? Or they’ve only seen one side of the story. Maybe it’s a complex issue and there are two sides, but they’re really only concerned with their side because that’s all the facts that they’ve gathered. That’s all the evidence that they’ve gathered, all of the arguments, and so they really only know like their side of the story.

And I think OCD. Is very similar in this way, is very selective about what it actually pays attention to. The reason we know this is because if you meet someone with, let’s say, contamination OCD, somebody may be really, really concerned about getting the flu, but they may be, let’s say, less concerned about or not concerned at all about getting the Norovirus.

Someone else with OCD, they are super concerned about any kind of stomach bug out there. They are not concerned necessarily about the flu as long. It doesn’t make them throw up. They’re like, whatever. I’m not really concerned about catching those specific germs. Sometimes people can be super focused on touching objects surfaces and believing that they’re going to be contaminated that way, but they’re not bothered about what’s in the air.

And people would look at that and say, that doesn’t make any sense. ’cause certainly many of our illnesses are airborne. However, that’s just how OCD works. Because if you understand the reasoning process is starting in the imagination and then we use the facts and the logic to back it up, then it makes sense that way.

But if you don’t understand that obsessional reasoning process. Then you just say, yeah, I know this is really weird, but this is what I think and and how I feel. Instead of going, yeah, this is how I got to this point. OC also has this way of starting with a particular belief and then neglecting all of the other things that may be true.

One thing that we learn in ICBT is this concept of affirming the consequence. What this looks like is making a statement like, well, God heals people that he loves, which is true. And then the next part of the equation would be. God hasn’t healed me, therefore he doesn’t love me. It’s like this way of reasoning backwards instead of looking at the situation saying, okay, there are many different reasons why God hasn’t healed you, but you’re focused solely on.

He hasn’t healed me because he doesn’t love me, instead of there may be other things that he’s trying to cultivate in my life and is gonna use this suffering in order to do that. Another example might be serial killers have poor relationships with their mothers. I don’t know if that broad generality is true, but let’s just pretend it’s true and then to say, I don’t have a good relationship with my mother, therefore, I may turn into a serial killer.

OCD can be very sneaky like that and make all kinds of arguments. Number five, if you’re gonna get unstuck from spiritual, mental rituals, may really need to bring in some reinforcements, get some help, whether that’s finding an ICBT therapist online. There’s a great. Resource list where you can do that, or I also have a course called Empowered Mind, Christian ICBT for OCD, and especially for individuals dealing with scrupulosity who have mental rituals or ruminations.

I’ve had many individuals go through this course who have found incredible hope and help for dealing with the mental rituals, the compulsions. They’ve been able to learn the ICBT process through a Christian lens, which helped them feel safe and comfortable having the faith integration piece. And if that’s something you might be interested in, you can just go check it out at kerry b.com/training.

We would love to see you take advantage of that self-help course. It is way cheaper than 12 sessions of therapy. Historically, in the past, there have been 12 modules of ICBT. The way that they’re being taught now is differently than when they were originally proposed in a treatment manual. So I have them broken down and all the concepts in there without specifically them being based on particular modules.

I’ve tried to make them easy to understand, breaking down some of these hard concepts and giving you a lot of different examples. We also are in the process of creating a custom workbook to go along with that course for the students that are in the live training right now. So I’m very excited to release that workbook as part of the course coming at the end of May.

So we are just around the corner with that. If you buy it now, you will have six months access to it. So when everything gets dropped in there in May, you’ll be able to see the most revised version of the material. Thank you so much for listening today, and as always, you can reach out @carriebock.com anytime.

Until next time, may you be comforted by God’s great love for you. Christian faith in OCD is a production of By the Well Counseling. This podcast is for informational purposes only, and should not be a substitute for seeking mental health treatment in your area.

219. The Holy Spirit and Blasphemy Concerns with Pastor Jeremy Pickwell

Written by Carrie Bock on April 14, 2026. Posted in OCD, Podcast Episode.

In this episode, Carrie sits down with Pastor Jeremy Pickwell, founding pastor of Alinea Church, to talk about the Holy Spirit, the fear of blasphemy, and how to find peace when your thoughts make you question your relationship with God.

Episode Highlights:

• What the Holy Spirit really is and why He is personal, not just a feeling

• How the Holy Spirit helps guide, comfort, and strengthen you in daily life

• What the Bible actually means by blasphemy of the Holy Spirit

• Why intrusive thoughts are not the same as rejecting God

• How to stop overthinking and trust God with uncertainty

• How to find peace when you feel afraid you’ve “messed things up” spiritually

Episode Summary:

What Is the Holy Spirit and Have I Committed the Unforgivable Sin?

As I was planning our scrupulosity series, I realized we had never really slowed down to talk about the Holy Spirit in a clear, practical way. We also had not addressed one of the most fear-filled questions I hear from Christians with OCD: Have I committed blasphemy of the Holy Spirit?

So in this episode, I sat down with Pastor Jeremy Pickwell, founding pastor of Alinea Church, to have a conversation around both of these topics.

What is the Holy Spirit and why does it feel so confusing?

Depending on your background, you may have received very different messages about the Holy Spirit, and for many people, that leaves them unsure of how to relate to Him in everyday life. Sometimes it can feel overly complicated, or even like something easier to avoid altogether, but what if understanding the Holy Spirit is actually more simple and personal than you’ve experienced before?

Why do I feel so much pressure to get my faith exactly right?

If you struggle with OCD or anxiety, your relationship with God can start to feel like something you have to manage perfectly. You may notice yourself overthinking decisions, questioning your motives, or worrying that one wrong thought could change everything, and that kind of pressure can feel exhausting over time.

But what if your relationship with God was never meant to feel that fragile?

What if I’ve committed blasphemy of the Holy Spirit?

This is one of the most common fears I hear, and it often starts with a single thought that feels alarming or out of character. From there, it can spiral into deeper questions about your salvation, your heart, and whether you’ve done something that cannot be undone.

In this episode, we explore what this passage actually means and why it may not apply in the way you think it does.

Do my thoughts reflect my relationship with God?

Intrusive thoughts can feel incredibly convincing, especially when they go against what you truly believe. They can make you question your identity, your intentions, and your faith, but it’s important to step back and ask whether every thought deserves that level of meaning.

There is a difference between what your mind produces and what your heart truly desires.

How can I find peace when I don’t feel certain?

Many of us long for clarity and certainty, especially when it comes to our faith, but part of the Christian walk involves learning how to trust God even when things feel unclear. That tension can feel uncomfortable, but it can also be a place where deeper trust begins to grow.

If you’ve been carrying fear, pressure, or confusion in your spiritual life, I want you to know that you don’t have to navigate that alone. God is not distant from your struggle, and He is not waiting for you to get everything right before drawing near to you.

We go deeper into all of these questions in this conversation, and my prayer is that it brings you clarity, peace, and a greater sense of God’s presence with you.

Transcript

As I was planning out episodes for our Scrupulosity series, I realized that we’ve never really done a deep dive into the Holy Spirit, and we’ve never addressed blasphemy of the Holy Spirit concerns. I chose to interview our pastor because I really feel like he has been able to communicate very clearly some of these spiritual truths about the Holy Spirit from scripture, and I know that I have been learning and growing in my own journey in this area of my spiritual life and wanted to share a little bit of that with you all.

Welcome, OCD Warriors, to the Christian Faith and OCD podcast where we are all about reducing shame and stigma of struggling with OCD as a Christian, sharing hopeful stories and replacing uncertainty with faith as you develop practical tools for greater peace. I’m Carrie Bach, Christ follower, wife, mom, and licensed professional counselor in Tennessee.

I pray you are blessed by today’s episode.

Pastor Jeremy Pickwell is the founding pastor of Alinea Church in Murfreesboro, Tennessee, which began in 2021. He is passionate about helping people grow in their faith, discover their purpose, and take meaningful steps in their relationship with God. Jeremy is married to his lovely wife, Jennifer, for 22 years, and they have two sons, Wyatt and Weston. They’re a very adventurous, outdoorsy family who likes visiting national parks and have visited 36 across the US. I appreciate Pastor Jeremy’s transparency and authenticity in the stories that he shares in this episode. Okay, Pastor Jeremy, so how would you explain the Holy Spirit to a new believer?

Pastor Jeremy: It’s a great question. The Holy Spirit ultimately is God. He’s not a force. He’s not an influence. He’s not a vibe. He’s the third person of the Trinity, so fully God with personhood, which I think is important because he speaks to us. He grieves. He intercedes. He leads. I remember someone once said that the manger is God with us, and the cross is God for us, and Pentecost is God in us. It’s the Holy Spirit who comes and indwells us. One of the most fascinating scriptures in the Bible is when Jesus said it was better for him to leave so that the Spirit would come, which I think is kind of staggering.

Carrie: Yeah, that must have been kind of shocking to the disciples. What do you mean it’s good that you’re going away? We need you here.

Pastor Jeremy: Yeah, I know better. This is not good. We need you here. So I think that’s a fascinating thing. So the Holy Spirit is God in us now and leads and guides the believer, and unfortunately we tend to treat the Holy Spirit as kind of like the weird uncle in the attic that we don’t wanna talk about. We either ostracize him as some kind of theological abstraction or we lean so hard into charismatic experiences, and I don’t think either one of them really does him justice. So he’s the third person of the Trinity. He’s a person to know, not a concept to figure out. He’s there to help us.

Carrie: Yeah. This is really great. I shared in our last episode, and you wouldn’t know about this information, but I’m gonna repeat it for anybody that missed it. I’ve been on this journey where I grew up in a very knowledge-based faith and then swung over into some more charismatic, Holy Spirit-led expressions. I’ve been struggling, I think, for a while to find the balance and find the middle ground and have felt very much like, okay, this camp over here is too far to one side and this other camp is too far to the other side. And I think my husband has had his own wrestlings with that because we grew up very, very differently. When we got together, he was on the knowledge-based side and I was on the charismatic side. Anyway, it’s been an interesting journey, but I just say all that to say that it’s okay for people to examine what they have been taught in the church and to continue to seek God through the Word and the Holy Spirit and prayer to reveal things to you. Maybe you were taught some things that are not in alignment with the Word of God.

Pastor Jeremy: Absolutely.

Carrie: How do you see the role of the Holy Spirit as being different in the Trinity versus God and Jesus?

Pastor Jeremy: Yeah, man, this is like back to my many years ago, my master’s program, my MAR. Scripture reveals that they have distinct roles of Father, Son, and the Holy Spirit. The Spirit’s work in the believer’s life: it says that he convicts of sin.

Carrie: Right.

Pastor Jeremy: He regenerates us. He indwells us. One of my favorite scriptures is that he is a sealing, a guarantee of our inheritance. He illuminates scripture to us. We just went through as a church in 2025, looking through Acts, and all throughout Acts is the Holy Spirit, who is the power for us to complete the mission that Jesus has set us out on. He produces this character in us through the fruit of the Spirit. He intercedes for us when we don’t know how to pray, which is also another beautiful verse. When you just kind of get to those moments where you just don’t know what to do, the Holy Spirit is right there like, hey, I’ll take it from here. He truly is a helper. That’s what Jesus called him, the Paraclete, the helper. And I think that as Jesus has given us this mantle to bring heaven to earth, he has also given us the Holy Spirit. One of the most frustrating things as an individual is when you’ve been empowered to do something but you’ve not been equipped to do it. You’re responsible for this, but I’m not gonna give you the tools to complete it. Well, Jesus empowered us to do what he’s called us to do, and then he’s also equipped us with the Holy Spirit indwelling us. That’s my view of the Holy Spirit, that he is transformational power to complete the task that Jesus has for us.

Carrie: Yeah. And I just wanna insert something in here about OCD recovery too, because when God calls you to do hard things and you feel like, I can’t do this, I can’t do this thing that you’re asking me to do, that’s what you’re saying. It’s not supposed to be something that we’re supposed to strong-arm and muscle through, but God gives us the Holy Spirit to empower us to do that work that he has called us to do. And I think that people can get that really confused. It’s that whole idea of, I don’t wanna surrender my life over to God because he might call me to go be a missionary in Africa and I don’t wanna go be a missionary in Africa.

Pastor Jeremy: Right. I think when we say, well, I can’t, I would say, yeah, you’re right. We can’t in and of ourselves. We need the Holy Spirit. So when God calls us to do something, where God calls, he equips and he provides. And the thing about how I am wired is that a lot of times I won’t attempt something because it’s not perfect. A lot of times I won’t attempt something because I can’t see the win, or I can’t see an end game that makes me feel good about myself, and that’s not what we’re called to do. When Wyatt was in kindergarten, he’s my oldest and he’s 18 now, he got a note sent home because in kindergarten he would not draw a picture of his family. We sat down with him and said, why won’t you draw? Are you not proud of us? What’s the deal? We love you. And he said, I’m not drawing stick figures because it’s not going to do the family justice. He was not gonna draw something that didn’t represent who his family was. And I think a lot of times for us, we can get locked into that as well. But as a parent we would’ve said, I don’t care what you draw. This is beautiful. This represents me working through you. And I think that’s what the Holy Spirit wants us to understand. Stop worrying about what you think about the situation. Let me work through you. You may see it as imperfect. I see it as beautiful because I’m the one who’s working through you. It’s in your weaknesses that I’m shown strong.

Carrie: Yeah. I wanna shift things over to more personal life examples. God took you through this process where you were called out of Virginia and moved to plant a church in Murfreesboro. How did you see the Holy Spirit work through that process of basically uprooting you from one area and planting you in another?

Pastor Jeremy: Man, I wish I could take so much credit for that. I wanted to be part of just a growing, life-giving church. We were part of a church plant in Texas originally and we knew that God was calling us out, but we didn’t know where. I applied everywhere. Resumes sent out everywhere and nothing worked out. We ended up going back for me to get my master’s just as a fallback plan. When I did that, I ran into a guy who had been asked to come up and preach on the weekends for a church. I asked him if he wanted somebody to lead worship, just let me know. So that was in 2005 and that was 50 people. I remember when I went to get my master’s, I was angry. I was bitter. God hadn’t opened up a door. I was going back to get my education. I wanted to be at a church and no one thought I was good enough. That was primarily why I got a lot of no’s. I was just not good enough in their eyes. And so it really kind of messed with how I felt about who I was. We ended up at this church, and I thought at the time it was just a short-term thing. I get to lead worship, I get to pursue my masters, it’s gonna be fine. 15 years later, we went from 50 people to 5,500 to 6,000 people in six locations. And I had no part in that in the sense that I wasn’t smart enough to pick that. And I think that is evident when you look at how I left LifePoint in Virginia to start Alinea in Murfreesboro. It was not a clean, linear line of us hearing God and then leaving. It was kind of like the same thing when we left Texas. It was a lot of ups and downs. It was a lot of feeling like you’re twisted around like a pretzel. It was a lot of, okay, we’re gonna stop worrying about this. We would lay it down and then we would pick it back up and worry about it again. We would pray and we would go on long walks. We just couldn’t get a clear answer. I knew I felt something. Someone once told me that when God’s calling you, there’s a push and a pull. You feel like there’s a push. I remember even speaking with my pastor at the time and he said something very clear to me. He said, if you don’t feel like you can accomplish everything God has called you to do here, then that’s a great push. That’s a great understanding that maybe there’s something else in you. And then there’s also a pull. We had been homesick for Tennessee for 15 years. I was born in Tennessee. Jennifer was born in Tennessee. Songs about Tennessee would bring tears to our eyes because we missed Tennessee so much. And so there was definitely a pull. There was a guy who wrote a book called God at Work. He’s a businessman from England. His name’s Ken Costa. He’s very measured, very sophisticated, very academic, and he came and preached at LifePoint. It was kind of not really the kind of personality that fit who we were at the church. I mean, we had power preaching, powerful worship, and here you have this kind of guy that feels like he should be teaching at Oxford or something. So he comes and preaches for us. Then he does a staff meeting, and in the staff meeting he says something so out of character, like, what in the world is he talking about? He said these words: if you’re praying about leaving here, stop praying about it every day. You’re going to drive yourself nuts.

Carrie: Wow.

Pastor Jeremy: He said, pick it up every two months, every 30 days, every three months, and then revisit it and pray about it again. And that’s what I needed to hear because I was obsessing over it. My wife and I were wrapping ourselves in pretzels.

Carrie: That’s just a timing thing. Like God has given me certain visions for this podcast or for my business, and I’m just not sure right now. I’m trying to find clarity, like what is the timeline on this? And I just trust God that when it’s the time, he’s gonna open the right opportunities or the right doors, and I’m gonna know, okay, walk through that. Do you think that was part of it, or do you think it was more like God was preparing you personally, on a heart level, to be willing to do that?

Pastor Jeremy: In that moment, I feel like he was rescuing me from myself.

Carrie: Okay.

Pastor Jeremy: That was probably a Monday. I think our staff meetings were Mondays or Tuesdays. My job was to visit all the campuses. So we had six campuses. I’d drive with my two boys and Jennifer and we’d go visit the campus that was a county above us and see how the pastor was doing. My wife and I were sitting outside talking about this very thing. How often are we gonna pick this up? Are we gonna pray about this? Every three months we’re driving ourselves nuts. And in that moment the phone rang and it was a friend of ours who was part of the church, and it was one of those people that you trusted. They weren’t far out in left field and you didn’t roll your eyes when they said something to you. And she said, I need to talk to you and Jennifer together. We went to the car, put her on speakerphone, and she said, I had a dream about you. If I do not tell you this, somebody else is gonna tell you. I know God wants me to tell you something. And I said, what? And she told me this dream. We were like, she’s about to tell me I got cancer. I’m gonna die. What’s going on? And she said, I’m supposed to tell you it’s not time yet.

Carrie: Wow.

Pastor Jeremy: And we just bawled, both of us. I think that God always has a way, when we are seeking him and seeking his will, to ensure we get the message. I think we can be like, what if I miss it? What if God’s trying to tell me something? What if I miss it? People may disagree with me. This is just where I’ve landed. I just believe that God’s will is not a tightrope.

Carrie: Yeah.

Pastor Jeremy: I think a lot of times when we are pursuing, when we are seeking the Holy Spirit’s guidance, James says ask for wisdom, right? Don’t doubt. Well, then we’re like, what if I’m doubting? I feel like I’m doubting. And so we just kind of wrap ourselves in pretzels and we get up on this rope and we’re tightroping God’s will like, oh my goodness, if I miss his voice, I’m gonna fall off and all hope is lost, and God’s will for my life is thrown out the window. I just don’t think I’m that powerful. I don’t think I am the type of person who can derail God’s will from my life to that extent, as long as I’m the one who’s pursuing the will of God.

Carrie: Yeah.

Pastor Jeremy: Right. There’s the opposite of that, like I could care less what God says. I could care less what his will is. I’m not even pursuing him. But if you’re pursuing him, seeking him, I could fall off, I could have missed that, but I feel like he knows what he’s doing. He can get me back on track. And I think moving from Texas to Virginia was like that. I think moving from Virginia to Tennessee was like that. Maybe there were some on-ramps that I missed where I was just too hardheaded or I was too afraid or whatever. But I feel like God is just able to keep ordering our steps and getting us where we need to be.

Carrie: That’s so good. And I think very relatable to this audience as well, who often feels like, I’ve gotta get it right. I’ve gotta get it exactly right and I’m gonna mess it up and I’m gonna somehow miss God’s voice. But God is very loving and gracious to us and redirects us as needed. Like, nope, not that direction. You thought you were going there, but sorry, over here. You said something several weeks ago that I was like, this is so comforting. You were talking in church about how we had prayed and I was like 85% sure that we were supposed to do this. I was just praying that God was really in it and that this was what God wanted us to do. That was so comforting to me, because our faith does require a level of faith. It’s not always just this clear map outline of what we’re supposed to do. God wants us to take these steps and trust him with the rest and trust him with the results.

Pastor Jeremy: Yeah, and I think 85% might be high. Again, I think it really comes back to pursuing the heart of God. I don’t think a lot of the things that I say really translate if you’re not pursuing him. I remember my mentor, you’ve heard me talk about him all the time, Ted Wilson. He’s gotta be like in his nineties. I can’t remember how old he is. He’s probably still out mowing lawns or something. I was coming out of college and I talked to a church in another state about coming on and being their music director, and I really hit it off with the pastor. When I went down to visit, I told my parents, this is where I’m going. I don’t wanna live here. I agonized over it, turned myself into a pretzel, and started asking everybody’s opinion about what I should do. I just felt like I was Jonah in the whale and God was calling me somewhere and I was saying no. I remember calling Ted and I said, this is how I’m feeling, blah blah blah. He listened to me and he finally got kind of fed up with me, I think, and he said, what do you wanna do? I said, I don’t wanna go. He said, then don’t go. And I was like, is it really that simple? And it was the first time in my life that I realized that there are certain filters you can filter God’s will through. I should do this. I shouldn’t do that. Some of them are clear what to do. Some of them are clear what not to do. Paul gives us a lot of latitude, like some things are permissible and profitable, some things are permissible and not profitable. So you can kind of filter through that. But then after that, it’s just like, does this honor God? Does this elevate others? Is this good for others? You can still be like, well, this doesn’t really filter anything. You can ask yourself, what do I wanna do? Where’s my heart at? I think a lot of times when you’re praying and you really have a heart for something, you should listen to that and maybe scratch that a little bit and see what God is trying to do in your life.

Carrie: Yeah, not all desires are bad. I think sometimes people have been taught in the church that if I want something, that’s bad, because it somehow means I’m not surrendered to God. But you have to surrender those desires over to God and pray about your motives and things of that nature as well. I do that a lot. God, I think I want this. Do I want it for the right reasons? Is this what you want for me? I think if you’re seeking him and filtering in that way, God gives you desires and that’s a good thing. Someone asked me recently, how in the world did you get into OCD work? And I said, it was God. I wasn’t really looking for this direction and God has just really broken my heart for this people group and the lack of resources they have, especially resources speaking directly to Christians. I just can’t really explain that to anybody. I can sort of explain the process of how I got here, but where God has brought me to is not anywhere that I chose, and at the same time I love it. I love what I’m doing. So we receive the Holy Spirit when we’re saved, right? But I wanna talk a little bit about being continually filled with the Holy Spirit. I took some scripture references from one of your sermons where you were talking about this repeated phrase of “filled with the Holy Spirit” that comes up in Acts. Acts 4:8 refers to Peter being filled with the Holy Spirit. Acts 13:9, Paul is filled with the Holy Spirit. Acts 15:52, the disciples were filled with joy in the Holy Spirit. Talk to us about the difference between receiving the Holy Spirit and being filled with the Holy Spirit.

Pastor Jeremy: Yeah. I come from a theological background where I believe in a baptism of the Holy Spirit, and I think that can be controversial, but I don’t think it should be. When we say baptizo, we just mean immersed.

Carrie: Mm-hmm. Yeah.

Pastor Jeremy: And I wanna be immersed in the Holy Spirit, and I think all of us do. But I also grew up in a kind of Pentecostal background where I saw some things that I wrestled with theologically through college and seminary. I really kind of dug into the scriptures, and I heard a preacher say one time, and I loved it, regardless of where you fall on the spectrum, you’ve got Pentecost in Acts chapter two, but we should also be believers who want to be filled with the Holy Spirit in Acts chapter four.

Carrie: Yeah.

Pastor Jeremy: Like this continual filling. I think that for me, it’s getting under the blessing and the provision of God. I think being filled with the Holy Spirit is a lot about aligning ourselves. It’s like an umbrella. A lot of times we can get ourselves out from underneath the protection of God and then we get out there and we’re like, God, why did you leave me? And he’s like, what are you talking about? Just get back under where my protection is. I think being filled with the Holy Spirit is a continual thing because the Holy Spirit is the person who empowers us to be able to do the things that God’s called us to do. And that’s why you see it all throughout Acts. It’s a continual filling. I made the joke in that sermon that it’s not set it and forget it. Some of your listeners will get that, a lot of them won’t. But it’s not this thing where you just say, oh, I’ve been baptized in the Holy Spirit, I don’t have to worry about that anymore. Well, that’s not the way the disciples operated. The disciples always operated from a position of, I need to decrease so he can increase. I need more of the Holy Spirit today. I pour out so that I want to be filled up. You’re a conduit. So if you’re a conduit, maybe conduit’s not the right word, maybe we’re water towers of the Holy Spirit, filled up with the Holy Spirit, and then you pour out. And I think it’s a continual process.

Carrie: Awesome. Well, I wanna talk briefly about this concern about blasphemy of the Holy Spirit. This is a very scary scripture passage for some people. Matthew 12:31 and 32 says, “Therefore, I tell you, every sin and blasphemy will be forgiven, but the blasphemy against the Spirit will not be forgiven. And whoever speaks a word against the Son of Man will be forgiven, but whoever speaks against the Holy Spirit will not be forgiven, either in this age or the age to come.” What in the world does this mean?

Pastor Jeremy: Yeah. I think this is such an important question, especially when it deals with OCD, because there’s so much fear and worry behind it.

Carrie: Yeah.

Pastor Jeremy: Like, have I committed the unpardonable sin and is all hope lost for me? I really wanna be very careful and precise here. I think what’s important about that passage is Jesus says every sin and blasphemy will be forgiven, but blasphemy against the Spirit. I think that one of the things we should start with is, wow, what a grace-filled passage. Like everything. Everything is gonna be forgiven. Think about the world and how broken it is and what a swath of grace Jesus just laid out there. But I think that when he is talking about blasphemy of the Holy Spirit, the context is that he has just cast out a demon. The Pharisees are watching this in real time, and they attribute his work to Beelzebub. And the blasphemy of the Holy Spirit in that moment is not careless and not final. It’s not a season of doubt. I think we’ve all had seasons of doubt.

Carrie: Sure.

Pastor Jeremy: I still continually have seasons of doubt where I’m like, God, where are you? What am I doing? And think about David in the Psalms, how often he is pouring his heart out to God and a lot of these prayers are not elegant. A lot of his prayers are very angry. Like, what is going on? Why have you left me? I think that’s the heart that God wants us to have. He wants us to be real. But in this instance, it was settled for the Pharisees. It was settled. It was deliberate. It was eyes wide open.

Carrie: It was basically saying that something God was doing was attributable to demonic forces.

Pastor Jeremy: Yeah. And I think it’s unforgivable, not because God refuses to forgive. That’s not what’s going on there. It’s because the person has permanently rejected the only means of forgiveness. It’s like refusing to take the only medicine that cures the disease. The cure is available, but the person won’t take it. I’ve heard someone say, and I think this is beautiful, that if you’re wrestling with that, then chances are pretty good, a hundred percent, that you have not blasphemed the Holy Spirit, because what you’re worried about is your posture with God. The Pharisees were not worried about their posture with God. And I think what we’ve gotta understand is that intrusive thoughts are not the same as a settled, volitional rejection of Jesus. That’s my take on that particular passage.

Carrie: Yeah, I appreciate that. I mean, I think our brain makes a lot of noise. There are thoughts that just come into our head that are intrusive and that we don’t have to create extra meaning out of. We can say, that was an intrusive thought, I’m not gonna go down that pathway. And sometimes that takes a lot of treatment, practice, and intentionality. But then there are thoughts that we intentionally think, and God knows how your brain works better than you do. God knows the posture of your heart and your desires to please him. Sometimes in spiritual life, even just as you’ve been talking about in this conversation, we want certainty. There’s a general desire to know, yes, exactly, a hundred percent. This is God. This is exactly what he wants me to do. But our relationship with God means we’re looking through the glass dimly. Things are a little bit messy right now until we get to heaven. One day things will be a lot clearer. So I appreciate your perspectives and your stories on this. I think they’re very relatable.

Pastor Jeremy: Yeah. I think on that particular passage, the fear is just indicative of a soft heart. I think the soft heart is what we’re called to have. That’s why I think if you’re fearful of that, you’re not there. You’re not blaspheming the Holy Spirit. You’ve got a soft heart, a soft and contrite, broken heart. That’s what the Lord gravitates towards.

Carrie: When we got off the air, I told Pastor Jeremy that some of what he said today was for me and I really appreciated it. I think I had been stuck on some business decisions, trying to make sure that I was making the right ones or focusing on the right projects for my business and the podcast. And it helped me to be able to let go and say, you know what? I’m surrendered to God and he’s gonna lead me in a direction when the timing is right, and I don’t need to continue to mull over this so much or have it all figured out right now. That may be a great thought for you if you struggle with rumination, to just say, you know what? I don’t have to have it all figured out right now, because there are many things in life we can’t figure out right now, and that’s okay. We’re living in that tension and that everyday uncertainty that we can trust God with.

Pastor Jeremy: Until next time, may you be comforted by God’s great love for you.

Carrie: Christian Faith and OCD is a production of By the Well Counseling. Opinions given by our guests are their own and do not necessarily reflect the views of myself or By the Well Counseling. This podcast is for informational purposes only and should not be a substitute for seeking mental health treatment in your area.

216. How Do I Know I’m Saved?

Written by Carrie Bock on March 25, 2026. Posted in OCD, Podcast Episode.

In this episode, Carrie dives into why salvation doubts can feel so real for Christians with scrupulosity and how OCD can pull believers into convincing fear-based stories about their faith.

Episode Highlights:

• Why salvation doubts can be common among Christians

• How scrupulosity creates fear-based faith narratives

• The difference between grace-based salvation and work-based thinking

• Spiritual seasons and why feelings of closeness with God change

• Understanding the OCD bubble through Inference-Based Cognitive Behavioral Therapy (ICBT)

Episode Summary:

What if I’m not really saved?

For many Christians, this question can feel incredibly unsettling. If you struggle with scrupulosity or religious OCD, those doubts can become even louder and harder to ignore.

In OCD treatment, we often talk about the obsessional story, which is the way OCD builds a narrative in your mind using bits of truth, imagination, and fear.

Before you realize what is happening, you may find yourself pulled into OCD bubble, where everything feels urgent and emotionally real.

This conversation explores what that process can look like and why it often feels so convincing.

Why Some Christians Question Their Salvation

There are several reasons believers begin questioning their salvation, even when they genuinely love God.

Sometimes it happens because someone was saved at a young age and later wonders if they truly understood what they were doing.

Other times it comes from comparing your faith story to someone else’s.

You might also question your faith during seasons when you do not feel close to God or when you are struggling with ongoing sin.

These experiences are more common than many people realize, and we take a closer look at some of the reasons these doubts surface.

The Role OCD Can Play in Spiritual Doubt

For people dealing with religious OCD, faith is often one of the things they care about most. Because of that, OCD can target those beliefs and turn them into intense mental battles.

You may find yourself replaying thoughts, analyzing past experiences, or searching for certainty about your salvation.

OCD has a way of mixing together facts, fears, and past experiences to create a story that feels believable, even when it leads to unnecessary distress.

Understanding this process can be an important step toward finding peace.

A Different Way to Look at Salvation Doubts

Many Christians have been taught that spiritual life should always feel strong and confident. But the reality is that faith journeys include many different seasons.

There are mountaintop moments where you feel deeply connected to God.

There are also quieter or more difficult seasons where things feel dry or uncertain.

We also look at how scrupulosity and OCD can influence these fears and how understanding the reasoning process behind those thoughts can help you begin moving forward.

Along the way, there are reminders about the nature of salvation and the role of God’s grace in our lives.

Scriptures Mentioned in This Episode

Ephesians 2:8–9

Romans 10:9

Romans 8:15–17

If you have ever wrestled with questions about your salvation or felt trapped in spiritual doubt, this conversation is for you.

Tune in to this episode to explore navigating salvation doubts with faith and wisdom.

Transcript

Today we’re talking about, “How do I know that I’m saved?” And I’ve really struggled to put this episode together because I didn’t want it to be just some kind of giant reassurance-seeking fest for people. However, I know that this is a big question that many Christians with OCD are wrestling with. Even if you don’t have OCD, lots of Christians have some everyday doubts about whether or not they’re saved.

The problem is that if you have a religious form of OCD called scrupulosity, it can take these everyday doubts and blow them up into a giant horror movie in your brain where you’re separated from God forever. And in inference-based cognitive behavioral therapy, we talk a lot about the obsessional story and how these doubts don’t just exist in isolation. They draw you into a storyline, and the plot is based on a mixture of fact and fiction. So there’s real emotion that gets laden onto these things. And even though you’re being led into an imaginary worst-case-scenario outcome, you don’t necessarily realize that you’re going into the imagination. You’re crossing over this imaginary bridge into what we call the OCD bubble.

Once you’re in the bubble, it’s very hard to recognize that you’re in the bubble. Everything feels real and scary, and it doesn’t feel quite safe to stay in that place, but it also feels really irresponsible, or it doesn’t feel okay, to leave.

Let’s talk for a moment about why people have doubts about their salvation. So for some people, they doubt their salvation because maybe they were saved really young. Maybe they don’t have a full memory of the experience. Maybe they remember it, but they feel like, you know, there were a lot of pieces spiritually that I just didn’t understand. And to that, I would say, of course there are things that we’re going to understand at a different level when we’re an adult than when we were a child. But did your child self understand it on a child level?

Other people would say, well, I’ve been listening to other Christians, and they have these dramatic testimonies, these extreme conversion experiences. They were using drugs before, and they didn’t care anything about God. They were an atheist. And then God met them somehow, and they knew it was Him, and now they’re not using drugs, and they are fully devoted to Jesus and telling everyone else about Him. And sometimes when you hear drastic and dramatic testimonies like that, it can cause you, if you don’t have one of those, to think, well, did I have a real experience? Am I really a Christian? So I think that’s why some people doubt.

Each person’s experience with the Lord is different in our meeting with Jesus. You can even see that with Jesus’ disciples. There were some that were kind of like, “Hey, come and meet Jesus. Come and see what’s happening.” And then you have, of course, Paul on the road to Damascus, and he has a dramatic conversion experience.

Maybe you don’t have a specific day or time that you can point to in regard to when you decided to follow Jesus. Maybe it was a gradual process. Over time, you slowly started to engage in spiritual practices, and at some point along that line, you made that decision each and every day to get up and to follow Jesus, to be His disciple. And I think people who have that version of their story struggle because they hear other people say, “Well, I know I was saved on June the first in 1985, and that was the day that I gave my life to Christ.” And so someone who has a more gradual conversion story may really struggle, like, is my experience real?

You may doubt your salvation by saying, “You know what? I just don’t feel close to God.” We’ve talked about this on the podcast before, that I do believe feelings are important. I don’t believe that we should just dismiss everything that we feel. We have to find this balance of our feelings do provide some helpful information for us sometimes. And there were certainly emotions that led me to start this podcast, whether those were sadness, deep empathy, and a little bit of anger about maybe easy answers in the Christian community. And all of that was very helpful for me and propelled me to do something positive after having that emotional experience.

So when we talk about, “I don’t feel close to God,” this is somewhat nebulous. Because you think about the other relationships in your life, whether it’s a parent or a spouse or a best friend, there may be times that you feel really close and connected to that person, and then there may be other times where you don’t feel as close and connected, but you know that you love them. You know that you care for them. You know that you wouldn’t want anything negative to happen to them, that you would want to rush to their aid if they needed you. So we can have that sense of love for God even if we don’t feel close to Him right now.

Sometimes people will say as part of their obsessional story, “Well, I don’t feel the same way that I did when I got saved.” I think you could ask a lot of married people, “Do you still feel the same way that you did the day that you got married?” That is a mountaintop, exciting experience, full of love. You’re surrounded by lots of friends and family. It’s a beautiful thing, but we may not feel that same exact way two years later. That doesn’t mean that we don’t love our spouse. It just means we’re in a different season right now, and we have different seasons spiritually.

We have these mountaintop experiences with God. Think about when you are a teenager going to youth camp, if that was part of your experience. Everyone’s so excited about God, and they’re like, “Yes, I totally want to follow Him and live for Him the rest of my life, and I want to tell all my friends about Jesus.” And then slowly that starts to fade as you get back into the real world, and some of that is just normal. So don’t allow OCD to use these types of things as evidence that you’re not saved or that you don’t love God.

We just recently, in January, went through a period of prayer and fasting with our church. I would say that was a recent mountaintop experience for me. It was exciting. We just saw some answered prayer, very profoundly felt close to God, very connected in prayer. We had a lot of corporate gatherings of prayer early in the morning. It was cold, but we went there. It was just a beautiful time.

And then February hit, and even toward the end of January and into February, it was like my family was super sick. Just things were very different going on there, right? It’s a different experience, not feeling maybe as connected or as close to God. We still love God. We’re still participating in spiritual activities. We’re still reading our Bible. We’re still praying. It’s just a harder season because we went through a lot of sickness and didn’t feel good, had some rough weather. It was a rough winter this winter, but that’s okay. Spring is here or coming.

There are also times in your spiritual journey, or I’ve experienced this as well, where you’re going through immense suffering. You’re sad, you’re depressed, you don’t even know if you want to get out of bed. What is the point of all this? Why am I here? And those are the valley experiences that we have spiritually. Those are the desert seasons.

There’s a song that I really love called Desert Song, and it’s been around a while, but it’s really just kind of followed me through different hard seasons of my life. I’ll put that song back on, and the whole idea behind it is I’m going to praise God regardless of the season that’s going on in my life. When things feel really dry and empty and lonely and dark, God is still here. God is still worthy of praise.

You may doubt your salvation if you’re struggling with an ongoing sin. And this is something that we talked about in the confession and repentance episode, so I encourage you to flip back to that one and listen to it. It’s really good. And we talk about how the struggle that you’re going through shows that you are battling with sin and can confirm to yourself that you are a believer, that you are connected to God, because you are actively working toward eradicating that sin out of your life. That struggle means that you’re a work in progress, that God is still working on you and in you, and that you are still partnering with the Holy Spirit in that sanctification process.

The final reason for salvation doubts that I want to talk about is that people have bought into a works-based salvation. They’re depending on what they are doing and determining whether or not that’s good enough for God. And it’s interesting because I’ve talked with many people who have these doubts, and they will say, “Well, yeah, I know that’s not the gospel, but I feel like this.”

So I want to share that all of these things that we’ve talked about are all things that OCD uses as part of the obsessional story to draw you in and cause you to believe something that’s not true. And so it’s helpful for us to know that because if we know that, and we know these potential contributions to the obsessional story, other potential contributions may be people that you know who have walked away from the faith. That may be a huge contribution to some of this. “Well, I thought that they were really dedicated, and they walked away from the faith, and so what does that mean about me?”

Feelings of inadequacy, of feeling bad about yourself, can cause you to feel like, yeah, the Scripture promises and Word are for everyone else. Somehow I’m outside of that. That’s not really for me. This is very common in scrupulosity.

Oftentimes, I’m running into people that have read the Bible, they’ve studied the Scriptures, they’ve been under the teaching. They’ve done their fair share of Googling about their spiritual doubt process. And what we know is that OCD does use specific facts. It uses personal experience. It uses hearsay, the things that we’ve heard about other people. It uses news articles. All of these things are thrown into this obsessional story, and we can write a convincing story and make it sound really believable, and we can put fear in there or anticipation. And that can cause people to feel real emotions.

So that’s why they might say, “I know that this doesn’t make sense, but I also know that it feels real,” and it gets very, very confusing internally, right? That’s what OCD does. Because there’s this blend of fact and fictional elements, it seems like it’s true. It stirs up a lot of emotion, and you get stuck in that fear.

Really, the way out of that is by being able to examine that story differently, recognize the thinking errors that are happening, not to challenge the negative thoughts, but to recognize the reasoning process that got you there in the first place. If you can recognize the obsessional reasoning process that got you there in the first place, then you can work your way backward to untangle that obsessional reasoning process so that you can get out of the OCD bubble.

And this is what inference-based cognitive behavioral therapy, or ICBT, teaches you how to do. You learn all of these different pieces. You learn about the reasons for the obsessional doubt, the obsessional story, what going into the bubble is like, and then what are the doorways out of that bubble so that you can get back to what’s actually happening in the here and now.

When we look at salvation at a very basic level, God has a part, and we have a part. God is the main character, the major player in the story. We have a minor part in accepting the gift. Salvation is based on the finished work of the cross of Jesus Christ. It is not based on what we have done. It’s not based on what we did before we were saved. It’s not based on what we’ve done since we’ve been saved.

Ephesians 2:8 and 9: “For by grace you have been saved through faith. And this is not of your own doing. It is the gift of God, not a result of works, so that no one may boast.”

If salvation is not based on earning God’s merit, then that means that we don’t need to strive for God’s love and approval. Our part of the equation, that’s very small, is to believe in what Jesus has done for us and to trust in the work of the cross of Christ.

Romans 10:9: “If you confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord and believe in your heart that God raised Him from the dead, you will be saved.”

This can be something that’s really hard for a lot of Christians with OCD to understand and accept. Salvation is not based on you and your behavior. Salvation is based on what God has done for us, and that’s a beautiful thing because if I can’t do anything to earn it, that also means that I’m not going to do something to mess it up.

If I am seeking God on a day-to-day basis, if I am involved and engaged with my faith, then you’re not just going to mysteriously, magically, somehow, maybe kind of walk away someday. That is a fear based in OCD and what OCD is telling you, all kinds of things that you’re going to lose your relationship with God, telling you that you’re going to walk away from the faith. It may tell you that you’re outside of the family of God, that you can’t really truly know if you’re saved. And understand that this OCD story, it comes with a lot of fear dumped on top of it. That fear makes the OCD story feel so real and so believable. But the problem is that it’s not. This is a lie, and you have to be able to identify, how in the world did I get into this reasoning process?

And I understand, as someone who grew up and felt like a lot of my sanctification, this process of becoming more like Christ, I thought this is all up to me and I’ve got to work really hard and I’ve got to check the boxes and I’ve got to do the right thing and I’ve got to be very conscientious. And I did all of that when I was younger and in my twenties. And you know what? It was exhausting.

Not only was it exhausting because there was so much effort that I felt like I was trying to put forth, there really wasn’t joy in my spiritual practices. And what I learned when life hit me on the backside and I went through suffering and came to a different understanding and realization of who God is and my relationship with Him, I recognized that if I can’t save myself, then I also don’t have that ability to do all this effort to make myself more like Christ. That has to be a partnership between me and the Holy Spirit as I am daily surrendering to God’s work in my life, as I am denying myself and taking up my cross every single day.

So I want to tell you that our salvation is not based on feelings, that you may or may not feel close to God right now. That doesn’t affect the truth of the situation, that you are saved based on what Jesus did in dying for you on the cross. You may feel like God isn’t there or God has abandoned you, but I want you to hear that He loves you very much and went all the way to give His Son for us in order to have a relationship with us. If that doesn’t speak volumes to you, I don’t know what will.

I think, unfortunately, we have become so desensitized to this salvation story, and we know all the quote-right answers as Christians. The joke is that the Sunday school answer is always Jesus. Whatever the question is, the Sunday school answer is, “It’s Jesus.” And so we can recite to ourselves, “Well, I know salvation is through grace, and I know Jesus died on the cross for me.” And then there’s this gigantic “but”—I’m emphasizing that word. It’s like, “But I feel…” is usually what comes next, or, “But I have this thought…” to that such-and-such. And you really have to do some work, and I encourage you to do some work, to unravel that thought process, unravel that feeling process, figure out where that story has come from.

And I’ve talked about this before, but oftentimes we’re putting things on God that we have received from other people in our life, or we are putting this perspective of who God is based on maybe some harsh church teachings that you might have experienced, judgmental believers in the church. There are all kinds of different ways that our view of God is formed. Most early and often, it’s our parents and how they respond to us, how they respond to us emotionally, how they respond to us in discipline situations, and then how they speak to us about God. And that certainly affects how we view God.

The last thing that I want to talk with you about is this concept that I’ve been rolling around in my mind that I refer to as spiritual sense data. Now, ICBT tells us that we have a variety of senses that we use in our environment on a normal everyday, day-to-day basis. So we have our five senses, we have our common sense, we have this sense of self, the real person who we really are. We also have internal senses. Those would be things like beliefs, desires, feelings, emotions. And if we are able to tune into all of these senses and trust those senses, that helps you get out of the trap of OCD, get out of that thought spiral.

I really believe that as believers, we have a sense of spiritual sense data if we have the Holy Spirit inside of us, in that Spirit testifies with our spirit that we are God’s children. This is what Romans 8:15 through 17 says: “For you did not receive the spirit of slavery to fall back into fear, but you have received the Spirit of adoption as sons by whom we cry, ‘Abba, Father.’ The Spirit Himself bears witness with our spirit that we are children of God.” That’s awesome right there. “And if children, then heirs—heirs of God and fellow heirs with Christ, provided we suffer with Him in order that we may also be glorified with Him.”

And that means that we’ve all had some type of experience where our spirit has connected with God’s Spirit. And I would encourage you to really not distrust those experiences that you have. Maybe it’s been a while because OCD has been so loud since you’ve had one of those spiritual experiences. Maybe it’s been a long time ago, but you were out in nature somewhere, or by a beach, or in a worship service, and you really felt the presence of God, or you had some type of spiritual peace or reassurance that God was with you. Maybe it was in a time of deep suffering and you were sorrowfully crying out to God, but God gave you, not all the answers to your problems, but just a sense of presence or a sense of peace.

And understand, I’m saying not all things are about feelings, but if you have these points in your life that I would call anchor points, I would encourage you to tap in and really remember those. Sit with those experiences from a full sensory level. And when you’re able to do that, I think that’s going to help you know that you belong to Christ.

We also know that there is a fruit of the Spirit: love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, self-control. And look, nobody has all of those things all the time. If we were perfect, if we had all the fruit of the Spirit all the time, we must be in heaven. That doesn’t exist on earth. But there are probably some of those things that you can identify. Look, I have become a more loving person since I became a Christian. Due to knowing Christ, I am a more patient person than I would be without Him. There is more kindness flowing out of me than there would be if I didn’t know Jesus. I think you may be able to see certain experiences in your life and say, okay, that’s something, that’s sense data that I can lean into, that shows that I love the Lord.

If you are having spiritual obsessions, the idea that this is something that you value, that OCD attacks, that it attacks your faith because it’s something that’s important to you, and if you’re just constantly wrestling with all of these doubts, I want you to know that there is hope, that there is healing, that I am going to continue to spread these messages that you can receive really great treatment that incorporates your faith, where you don’t feel like you have to either choose therapy or your faith.

If you’re struggling to find a strong Christian counselor in your area, I really encourage you to look into Empowered Mind. This is a course that I have for Christians that’ll teach you ICBT principles from a Christian faith lens. And if that’s something that would be helpful or beneficial to you, you can go to carriebock.com/training to find out more information.

Thank you so much for listening. Please stay tuned with us. Next week, I have an interview with a dear friend, and we’re going to be talking about when the suffering won’t end. He has been living with terminal cancer for seven years, and I think he’s just a wealth of godly wisdom for you. And we’re going to apply it to OCD, and I think you’re going to take a lot out of that episode.

215. Healthy Confession and Repentance With Scrupulosity with Michael Kheir

Written by Carrie Bock on March 18, 2026. Posted in OCD, Podcast Episode.

In this episode, Carrie welcomes returning guest Michael Kheir, author of Waging War Against OCD, to discuss forgiveness, repentance, and how Christians with OCD can break free from cycles of fear and guilt in their relationship with God.

Episode Highlight:

How scrupulosity twists the meaning of repentance and confession
The difference between Holy Spirit conviction and OCD condemnation
Why obsessive confession often comes from fear rather than faith
How understanding justification vs. sanctification changes the way we view our sin
What the fruit of the Spirit can teach us about recognizing God’s voice
How to stop confessing sins that God has already forgiven

Episode Summary:

Why Do I Feel Like I Have to Confess the Same Sin Over and Over?

Many Christians who struggle with scrupulosity deeply desire to honor God. Yet instead of peace, they often find themselves stuck in exhausting cycles of repeated confession, long prayers, and the fear that something may still be wrong between them and God.

In this episode, returning guest Michael Kheir, author of Waging War Against OCD: A Christian Approach to Victory, joins me for a conversation that many believers quietly wrestle with. If you have ever wondered whether you confessed “correctly” or worried that you might have missed something, this discussion may bring a new perspective.

Does Struggling With Sin Mean My Faith Is Weak?

Some Christians assume that if their faith were strong enough, the battle with sin would disappear.

Yet the apostle Paul described a very real internal struggle in Romans 7, where the desire to do good collided with the reality of human weakness. For someone dealing with OCD, that passage can raise uncomfortable questions.

Is this struggle a sign of failure, or could it actually be evidence that God is at work within you?

How Can I Tell the Difference Between Conviction and OCD Guilt?

For believers with scrupulosity, guilt can feel overwhelming and confusing.

One voice seems urgent, demanding immediate action and repeated confession. Another voice leads toward peace and restoration. Scripture offers important clues about the difference.

In this conversation, Michael shares how he learned to recognize the difference between OCD-driven guilt and the gentle conviction of the Holy Spirit during his own journey with scrupulosity.

Why Do Simple Decisions Suddenly Feel Like Sin?

Scrupulosity has a way of turning everyday choices into spiritual dilemmas.

Small decisions can begin to feel like they carry enormous consequences. A harmless moment can suddenly feel loaded with moral weight. The mind starts searching for hidden mistakes or unintended sins.

When that happens, it can become difficult to trust your own judgment or experience peace in your relationship with God.

Can One Mistake Really Ruin God’s Plan For My Life?

OCD often convinces people that one wrong choice could permanently derail their future or someone else’s.

The mind begins building complicated chains of possibilities where a tiny decision leads to devastating outcomes. But Scripture paints a very different picture of God’s sovereignty and redemption.

What Does Real Repentance Actually Look Like?

For many believers with OCD, repentance can become tangled with shame and fear.

Some people wonder whether they have confessed enough, repented correctly, or truly received forgiveness. Yet Scripture offers a different picture.

Scripture reminds us that when we confess our sins, God is faithful to forgive and cleanse us. He also offers an incredible reassurance that when we do fall short, we have an advocate in Jesus Christ.

Sometimes the hardest step is learning to trust what God has already promised.

Scriptures Mentioned in This Episode

Romans 7:19–25
Romans 8:1
Galatians 5:22–23
1 John 1:9
1 John 2:1
Psalm 103:12
Proverbs 28:13

If this question has ever crossed your mind, hit play on the episode above and listen to the full conversation.

And if you know someone who may be silently struggling with scrupulosity, consider sharing this episode with them today.

Connect with Michael Kheir: wagingwaragainstocd.com

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108. OCD Personal Story with Michael Kheir

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Carrie: Welcome back, everyone. I am so excited to have Michael Kheir back on the podcast. He is the author of Waging War Against OCD: A Christian Approach to Victory. You can hear more about Mike’s story back on Episode 184, where he shares about his personal experience with scrupulosity and how he came to write his book to help other Christians who are experiencing similar things.

Mike saw that we were in the scrupulosity series and said, “Hey, I have some things that I’d like to say about this.” So we decided to collaborate on an episode together, which is super fun.

Hello and welcome to Christian Faith and OCD with Carrie Bock. I’m a Christ follower, wife, and mother, and a licensed professional counselor who helps Christians struggling with OCD get to a deeper level of healing. When I couldn’t find resources for my clients with OCD, God called me to bring this podcast to you with practical tools for developing greater peace.

We’re here to bust through the shame and stigma surrounding struggling with OCD as a Christian, sharing hopeful stories of healing and helping you replace uncertainty with faith. I’m here to help you let go of the past and future to walk in the present, abundant life God has for you. So let’s dive right into today’s episode.

Welcome back to the show.

Michael: Thank you so much. Yeah, thanks for having me again.

Carrie: Yeah. Today we’re talking about healthy confession and repentance with scrupulosity. This is something that a lot of Christians with OCD really struggle with, so we’re going to get into a variety of different topics—the repetitive praying, the long confessional prayers, and just getting stuck confessing the same types of sin. So I hope that everyone will stay with us for this conversation.

The first thing that I wanted to talk about was this wrestling that all Christians have. We can’t get away from it—between what our flesh wants and what our spirit wants, and how we are in this daily battle with sin. Paul talks about this in Romans 7, which some of you may be familiar with, but I want to read a little bit of this and just get your take on it.

Romans, starting in verse 19: “For I do not do the good that I want to do, but I practice the evil that I do not want to do. Now if I do what I do not want, I am no longer the one that does it, but it’s the sin that lives in me. So I discover this law: when I want to do what is good, evil is present with me. For in my inner self I delight in God’s law, but I see a different law in the parts of my body waging war against the law of my mind and taking me prisoner to the law of sin in the parts of my body. What a wretched man I am! Who will rescue me from this body of death? Thanks be to God through Jesus Christ our Lord. So then, with my mind I myself am serving the law of God, but with my flesh the law of sin.”

I went through verse 25 there. What’s your reaction to this passage as you hear it?

Michael: Probably not what you’re expecting, but the first thing that came to mind was kind of an affirmation that we’re God’s child. I heard a sermon once where it was Dr. Tony Evans, who I reference in my book, and he talks about that battle being very real. And he’s like, non-Christians don’t even have that battle, right? They’re flesh, and they go on with their lives, and they’re dead in their sin, and they don’t even see the battles. And I think a lot of people with OCD are very sensitive to this battle, probably more so than most Christians.

Carrie: Sure.

Michael: So I actually see it as an affirmation that we are God’s children. Even though it’s kind of a heavy passage, that’s the first thing I take away from it.

Carrie: I think that’s important for people with scrupulosity to know, because they may see sins that come up in their life, or they may have an ongoing struggle that they’re dealing with—whether it’s an addiction, whether it’s explosive anger. It could be a variety of different things that they’re wrestling with—selfishness, pride. They feel like, “Oh, maybe this sin is somehow showing that I’m not a true believer.” They’re using the exact opposite reasoning process that you just used.

You said, “Hey, I have the wrestling. That means I’m a believer.” Whereas scrupulosity might say, “Oh, you have that wrestling. Maybe you’re not really God’s child.”

Michael: Sure. I would also say—and I’m sure you cover this theme in other episodes—is that OCD attacks what we value most. So if we really value our relationship with God, we most likely have salvation OCD: “Am I really a Christian? Am I really saved?”

And I think that comes back to confession and that we value peace, right? And I kind of want to make a joke that people with confession OCD are probably middle children, right, in the birth order. I’m a middle child, and we’re peacekeepers.

Carrie: Right. Yeah. Everybody just get along.

Michael: Exactly. Everyone get along. Nobody be mad. And I think that’s probably why we end up in this repentance cycle of, “God, I want to make sure I didn’t mess up and displease you.” And it’s because we value being right with God.

Again, I see it as a sign that we’re valuing the right things, even though it’s coming about in a twisted and cruel way. We’re just constantly feeling, “Oh, I need to make sure that I’m right. I need to make sure that I’m not in sin.” All of that is just pointing to the fact that we value our walk with God.

Especially me, as someone with OCD, I would have loved it if people had said that to me in my hardest years. So I’m saying it now. If you’re even listening to this and you’re struggling, it means you’re valuing the right things. It doesn’t mean the opposite.

Carrie: I have met Christians with scrupulosity who feel like this struggle between themselves and sin just shouldn’t exist. And it places this unrealistic expectation on their Christian walk. They’re like, “Well, I just shouldn’t lust anymore,” or “I just shouldn’t drink too much,” or “I just shouldn’t lash out at my kids.”

And I think the fact that Paul wrestled with these things—I find that very comforting. Because the Apostle Paul was a great hero of our faith, and for him to say with this depth, “What a wretched man I am,” but at the same time, “It’s Jesus that saves me from all of this.”

I think that helps people have realistic expectations, especially if they’re more on the perfectionistic side of things. They think, “Well, I should just be able to deal with this and eliminate it from my life,” which we’re powerless to do anyway. That has to be a work between God and the Holy Spirit in our life in the sanctification process.

I don’t know if you’ve ever encountered that at all, but I just wanted to speak to that.

Then there’s sanctification, which is we are now becoming who we really are. Meaning we are now children of God, and we are perfect in God’s sight. But we still have a flesh, right? That’s our spirit, but our flesh is still there. I still have all the sin-bents I had before I accepted Christ.

Over time those will go away. There’s an example in the Bible where they say the wives were sanctifying their unbelieving husbands. It was sort of a picture of the fact that they were living out the Christian life, and it was rubbing off on their husbands.

I think that’s what it’s saying for us too. It’s even more powerful because Christ is in us. We have all the power that Christ gives us spiritually, and it’s to be used to fight the flesh. There’s really no contradiction there. It’s more that we are two different parts, and we need to see those two parts differently.

I can be perfect in Christ spiritually, and we will fight against the flesh—the temptations, the greed, the envy, the lust, the laziness—everything that we struggled with before. We’re still going to struggle with it. The Holy Spirit will slowly change that.

Carrie: Yeah. I think a lot of people may be listening to this saying, “How do I get out of this behavior?” And what you’re really pointing to is that this is an identity piece. Like when I understand that I’ve been justified in Jesus and that when God looks at me, He doesn’t see all of my mistakes and all of my mess-ups and all the times that I’ve turned my back on Him or hurt other people—He sees the blood of Jesus. That’s huge.

Michael: Yeah. I don’t know if I put it in my book, but I really focus on this. I think one of the hardest things to do as someone with OCD in Christianity is believe that God is as good as He says He is.

Because what you just said—a lot of us know it in our brains, but living it out in everyday life is the hard part. It’s getting it to our heart where my heart actually believes God does not see my sin. I am perfect in His eyes, and I can live as if that is a reality, because it is a reality.

I think a lot of the time we hear it, we acknowledge it, and then we’re like, “Yeah, but…” and we just go back to the cycle of guilt and condemnation instead of really allowing it to soak in. And I think maybe just praying and asking God to help that soak into our heart is a good place to go if you’re overwhelmingly going toward the OCD and condemnation cycles.

Carrie: Yeah, that’s huge.

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Christian Faith and OCD Ep 215

Carrie: Welcome back, everyone. I am so excited to have Michael Care back on the podcast. He is the author of Waging War Against OCD: A Christian Approach to Victory. You can hear more about Mike’s story back on Episode 184, where he shares about his personal experience with scrupulosity and how he came to write his book to help other Christians who are experiencing similar things.

Mike saw that we were in the scrupulosity series and said, “Hey, I have some things that I’d like to say about this.” So we decided to collaborate on an episode together, which is super fun.

Hello, and welcome to Christian Faith and OCD with Carrie Bock. I’m a Christ follower, wife and mother, licensed professional counselor who helps Christians struggling with OCD get to a deeper level of healing. When I couldn’t find resources for my clients with OCD, God called me to bring this podcast to you with practical tools for developing greater peace.

We’re here to bust through the shame and stigma surrounding struggling with OCD as a Christian, sharing hopeful stories of healing and helping you replace uncertainty with faith. I’m here to help you let go of the past and future to walk in the present abundant life God has for you. So let’s dive right into today’s episode.

Welcome back to the show.

Michael: Thank you so much. Thanks for having me again.

Carrie: Today we’re talking about healthy confession and repentance with scrupulosity. This is something that a lot of Christians with OCD really struggle with, so we’re going to get into a variety of different topics: the repetitive praying, the long confessional prayers, and just getting stuck confessing the same types of sin.

So I hope that everyone will stay with us for this conversation. The first thing that I wanted to talk about was this wrestling that all Christians have. We can’t get away from it, between what our flesh wants and what our spirit wants, and how we are in this daily battle with sin. Paul talks about this in Romans 7, some of you may be familiar with, but I want to read a little bit of this and just get your take on this.

Romans, starting in verse 19: “For I do not do the good that I want to do, but I practice the evil that I do not want to do. Now, if I do what I do not want, I am no longer the one that does it, but it’s the sin that lives in me. So I discover this law: when I want to do what is good, evil is present with me. For in my inner self, I delight in God’s law, but I see a different law in the parts of my body waging war against the law of my mind and taking me prisoner to the law of sin in the parts of my body. What a wretched man I am. Who will rescue me from this body of death? Thanks be to God through Jesus Christ our Lord. So then, with my mind, I myself am serving the law of God, but with my flesh, the law of sin.”

I went through verse 25 there. What’s your reaction to this passage as you hear it?

Michael: Probably not what you’re expecting, but the first thing that came to mind was kind of an affirmation that we’re God’s child. I heard a sermon once where it was Dr. Tony Evans, who I referenced in my book, and he talks about that battle is very real. And he is like, non-Christians don’t even have that battle, right? They’re flesh, and they go on with their lives, and they’re dead in their sin, and they don’t even see the battles. And I think a lot of people with OCD are very sensitive to this battle, probably more so than most Christians.

Carrie: Sure.

Michael: So I actually see it as an affirmation that we are God’s children, even though it’s kind of a heavy passage. That’s the first thing I take away from it.

Carrie: I think that’s important for people with scrupulosity to know, because they may see sins that come up in their life, or they may have an ongoing struggle that they’re dealing with, whether it’s an addiction or whether it’s explosive anger. It could be a variety of different things that they’re wrestling with: selfishness, pride. They feel like, “Oh, maybe this sin is somehow showing that I’m not a true believer,” like they’re using the exact opposite reasoning process that you just used.

You said, “Hey, I have the wrestling. That means I’m a believer.” Whereas scrupulosity might say, “Oh, you have that wrestling. Maybe you’re not really God’s child.”

Michael: Sure. I would also say, and I’m sure you cover this theme in other episodes, is that OCD attacks what we value most. So if we really value our relationship with God, we most likely have salvation OCD: “Am I really a Christian? Am I really saved?” And I think that comes back to confession and that we value peace, right? And I kind of want to make a joke that people with confession OCD are probably middle children, right, in the birth order. I’m a middle child, and we’re peacekeepers.

Carrie: Right. Everybody just get along.

Michael: Exactly. Everyone get along. Nobody be mad. And I think that is probably why we end up in this repentance cycle of, “God, I want to make sure I didn’t mess up and displease You,” and it’s because we value being right with God. Again, I see it as a sign of we’re valuing the right things, even though it’s coming about in a twisted and cruel way. We’re just constantly feeling, “Oh, I need to make sure that I’m right. I need to make sure that I’m not in sin.” All of that is just pointing to, we value our walk with God. Especially me, as an OCDer, I would love it if people had said that to me in my hardest years, so I’m saying it now. If you’re even listening to this and you’re struggling, it means you’re valuing the right things. It doesn’t mean the opposite.

Carrie: I have met Christians with scrupulosity who feel like this struggle between myself and sin, like that just shouldn’t exist. And it places this unrealistic expectation on their Christian walk. They’re like, “Well, I just shouldn’t lust anymore,” or “I just shouldn’t drink too much,” or “I just shouldn’t lash out at my kids.”

And I think the fact that Paul wrestled with these things I find very comforting, because the Apostle Paul was a great hero of our faith. And for him to say this depth, like, “What a wretched man I am,” but at the same time, it’s Jesus that saves me from all of this. But I think for me, to help people have realistic expectations, especially if they’re more on the perfectionistic side of things, like, “Well, I should just be able to deal with this and eliminate it from my life,” which we’re powerless to do anyway. That has to be a work between God, the Holy Spirit in our life, in the sanctification process. I don’t know if you’ve ever encountered that at all, but I just wanted to speak to that.

Michael: You just touched on it. I think the problem comes from a misunderstanding of something about us as Christians. Without going into too much detail, there’s justification and sanctification. And justification is what happens the moment we accept Christ as our Savior. We are washed clean, and when God looks at us, He sees the perfection of Christ. And then there’s sanctification, which is we are now becoming who we really are, meaning we are now children of God and we are perfect in God’s sight. We still have a flesh, right? That’s our spirit, but our flesh is still, I still have all the sin bents I had before I accepted Christ. And over time those will go away.

And there’s an example in the Bible of, I believe they say the wives were sanctifying their unbelieving husbands, and it was sort of a picture of just the fact that they were living out the Christian life. It was sort of rubbing off on their husbands. I can’t remember exactly where that is, but I think that’s what it’s saying is that it’s even more powerful for us because Christ is in us. We have all the power that Christ gives us spiritually, and it’s to be used to fight the flesh. There’s really no contradiction there. It’s more that we are two different parts, and we need to see those two parts differently. I can be perfect in Christ spiritually, and we will fight against the flesh and the temptations and the greed, the envy, the lust, the laziness, everything that we struggled with before. We’re still going to struggle with. Sure, the Holy Spirit will slowly change that.

Carrie: I think a lot of people may be listening to this saying, “How do I get out of this behavior?” And what you’re really going to is this is an identity piece. Like, when I understand that I’ve been justified in Jesus and that when God looks at me, He doesn’t see all of my mistakes and all of my mess-ups and all the times that I’ve turned my back on Him or that I’ve hurt other people, He sees the blood of Jesus. That’s huge.

Michael: I don’t know if I put it in my book, but I really focus on this. I think one of the hardest things to do as an OCDer with Christianity is believe that God is as good as He says He is, because what you just said, a lot of us know it in our brains, but it’s true in everyday life, and that’s the part that’s hard. It’s getting it to our heart where my heart actually believes God does not see my sin. I am perfect in His eyes, and I can live as if that is a reality, because it is a reality. I think a lot of the time we hear it, we acknowledge it, and then we’re like, “Yeah, but…” We just go back to the cycle of guilt and condemnation instead of really allowing it to soak in. And I think maybe just praying and asking God to help that soak into our heart is a good place to go if you’re overwhelmingly going towards the OCD and the condemnation cycles.

Carrie: That’s huge. When we talk about conviction, I’m curious for you, how did you come to an understanding of the difference between this is Holy Spirit conviction, I need to confess something, because that’s an experience that all Christians should have, versus this is some type of OCD condemnation coming over me and now I feel this intense fear where I have to confess something?

Michael: Sure. First, start with an example of what healthy confession does not look like, because it’s almost comical, and I think I touched on it in our first discussion, where I was on a spring break trip in college and I had to slightly unzip my pants to tuck in my shirt in a crowded setting. And I think there was one girl in this very crowded room who didn’t see it, but I was like, “Oh my gosh, what if there’s a 1% chance she saw that? It’s so inappropriate.” It didn’t really bother me in the moment, but then after the trip, I went home and I would start reading my Bible, and these thoughts of, “How dare you think you can come and spend time with God if you’ve just offended this Christian girl? You need to go apologize.”

I tried to ignore it because in my head, in our minds, I think our conscience recognizes sometimes when something’s an OCD thought and sometimes not. This one, I think I did realize, but I couldn’t shake the fear that I was in the wrong here. So I eventually sent an email to the girl’s boyfriend apologizing, and after I sent it, I immediately realized it was wrong. That is not what God wanted me to do. It was chaotic, confusing, awkward, just not of the fruit of the Spirit.

I actually spend an entire chapter in my book talking about deciphering God’s Spirit, basically, from everything else. So the first passage is in Galatians 5, where Paul’s telling us that the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, self-control. And he says, “Against such things there is no law.”

So when I think of a time I wanted to confess, like the one I just described, none of it had the handprint of God on it. The thought was not kind. It was more like, “How dare you come before God if you have this wrong against someone?” It was very unkind. It was very condemning. And then there was the word joy there, and I find it actually applicable to use that word because I have another example in my life. I had a very tumultuous relationship with my dad. I remember listening to a sermon about being made right with other people at some point in my twenties, and normally it would just send me down this condemnation cycle, but there was something that I really did. I messed up with my dad, and I needed to apologize. And in listening to that sermon, the Holy Spirit really did convict me. I actually had joy, like, “You know what? I really should go make this right with my dad. It’s really bad that there’s friction between us, and I’m going to go do it.”

And I went and I apologized. The difference there was that there was no forced compulsion. It wasn’t like, “If you don’t go make it right with your dad, God’s never going to bless you. God’s going to be angry with you and not give you the things you really want.” There was none of that. It was just, “This is what I should do,” and it brought me joy to even think about going to do it, and it was a very gentle voice that was speaking to me. And I think we can almost start training ourselves to realize what the OCD voice is and what God’s voice is. And it’s right there in God’s Word. When God talks to us, it’s full of love, joy, peace, all of those descriptions.

Carrie: I think that’s great. And I love what Romans 8:1 says too, that there is therefore now no condemnation for those who are in Christ. So if you’re experiencing that condemnation, it’s not coming from God.

Michael: Absolutely. I think about it how I relate to my daughter. If I ever want her to apologize to a kid at school for something, it’s always for her benefit. Even indirectly, you need to learn that what you did was maybe mean and you need to apologize, or explaining why somebody should have apologized to her even if they didn’t. It’s never, “Oh man, you royally messed up and you got to go apologize, or they’re not going to play with you ever again.” But even saying, “I won’t accept you in this house anymore,” like that’s almost the severity that we feel sometimes when we’re confessing, when we have OCD. And it’s obviously not God, and it’s nothing we would ever do to our own kids. Probably we would never even do to our own enemies.

Carrie: I shared this in an email that I had sent out, but I don’t think I’ve ever talked about it on the podcast. When my dad would get onto me, it was kind of hard, and part of that was just he was kind of a big, scary dude. Not that he meant to scare me or things like that, sure, but when you’re a little kid and your dad’s kind of like a linebacker, it was a little scary, and I was more sensitive. So I wanted my daughter, in some of these correctional experiences, to know, like, “Hey, I’m correcting you. You did get time-out for this,” and all that, but at the end I would tell her, “This is what was wrong. This is why it happened. This is why you had the discipline,” whatever, “but I just want you to know I still love you.”

I think that puts discipline and correction in general into perspective. If my daughter knows, like, “Hey, Mom is disappointed that I made my own choice and there is consequence, but she still loves me,” that helps her feel more secure. And we can have that security as Christians in our relationship with Christ, that God still loves you regardless of what sin you might be struggling with, past or present.

Michael: Absolutely. I love the word you used, perspective, and I think so much of OCD, not just confession, I think all the problems in scrupulosity, I shouldn’t say all, almost all stem from an incorrect view of God and an incorrect view of how God sees us, right? If we really have this baseline of God is love, literally that’s who He is, and God loves us, and that is the entire relationship we have with Him is based on grace, right? That’s the foundation.

Then when we come to, “I need to apologize for something,” or “I need to confess something,” if it’s done with that being the foundation of the entire relationship, it looks completely different than how OCD brings the compulsion to confess to us. It’s completely opposite. I think the fruit, self-control, is the most eye-opening for me in Galatians 5 because OCD and compulsion are like the opposite of self-control. We’re just almost so compelled to go do something out of fear that we do it. That’s the opposite of how God would speak to us about doing something.

Carrie: I want to talk a little bit about hypervigilance because some people who are struggling with scrupulosity in this issue with confession, it’s almost like they’re on the lookout for sin at any point in time. And there was another author, Tiffany S., she wrote a book about anxiety, but with her anxiety she had almost some of these scrupulous ideas from time to time. And she tells a story about being paralyzed in the toothpaste aisle. “Do I buy the cheaper toothpaste because God wants me to save money, or do I buy this other toothpaste over here because it’s more all-natural and it’s closer to maybe what God would want me to use on my body, et cetera?” And just that paralysis, and almost thinking like if I buy the wrong toothpaste it’s going to be sin, like that would be an example of that people can get stuck with.

And I know you’ve had some paralysis of decision-making and things like that too, God’s-will type stuff. But I find that some people, it’s almost like, okay, there’s an urgency. Obviously we know behind the OCD, I’ve got to figure out if this is a sin, whatever this is, and then if it is, I have to confess it right now. Everything has to come to a full stop. But I wonder how people maybe can be aware of sin without feeling like they’ve got to be so hypervigilant to pounce on it at any point in time.

Michael: Sure. Again, this goes back to our view of God. In my book, I gave an example about how we need to walk in the grace of God, and I give an example of two different bosses. One is cruel, harsh, judgmental, always trying to put their employees down. And I make the proposition, let’s say that that boss came to you and said, “I’m going to give you a 25% raise if you meet all these conditions that I’m giving you now in the next six months.”

Our view of that would be, we would want the raise, obviously, so we would try. But we would constantly be, like you said, hypervigilant. “Oh my gosh, did I mess this up? Did I send an email to a customer and copy him and use a comma where I shouldn’t have and he is going to ding me for it? Or I was five minutes late yesterday, even though I stayed two hours late the night before. Is he going to ding me for that? My tone in the meetings with upper management, was it right?” And we’re just going to constantly obsess on, are we doing it exactly right? And the root of all that is fear because we know our boss is not good and he’s going to look for anything he can basically to withhold the 25% raise or whatever he promised.

And I think that’s what happens when we have OCD. We start viewing God as harsh and our relationship with Him as merit-based. God loves me, again, separate from salvation, like we can even know we’re saved and not struggle with that, but still be like, “God’s not going to bless me. I’m not going to feel close to God. I’m not going to be doing His will unless I read the Bible for the exact amount of time I’m supposed to, pray enough, help the needy enough, do all these things.”

But really, in my book, I go on and I talk about, let’s talk about the opposite boss. Let’s say this boss was kind, gentle. All he did was build up his employees. All he did was want to see them succeed. If they messed up, he would make sure that he got them the tools they needed to not mess up. Then he gave us that same promise. We would be completely relaxed in how we approach trying to meet the requirements to get the raise. We’d be like, “Oh my gosh, I’m just going to keep doing what I’m doing. If I mess up, I know he’s so kind, he is going to let me know. There’s not going to be any surprises, right? He is not going to pull the sheet out from under me like, just kidding, you almost made it. You made this one mistake.”

And I think it all comes down to the word grace. We have to understand that God is gracious, and I love that word for OCDers because grace is unmerited favor. It’s favor we don’t deserve, which means it’s favor we can’t do anything to get. And that’s what I love because OCD is always pushing us to go do something to get something, and God is saying, “No, your relationship with Me is based only on Me doing something for you, so stop trying to do to get right with Me. You’re never going to do it. Just walk in My love.”

And I think that’s where it’s so hard for our hearts to believe that, that I always say the hardest thing for an OCD Christian to do is believe that God actually is that good. He is going to keep that promise to love us independent of anything we’ve done.

Carrie: I think the reality is, though, that we’ve been overcomplicating our spirituality for a long time now. You know, look at the Pharisees. It’s like, well, we’ve got to tithe. But then it went into, well, all of a sudden we’ve got to tithe our spices and all these other things. And then Jesus comes along and says, “I don’t really care if you tithe your dill because you’re not treating the poor well, you’re not loving people, you’re not being kind to them. Your heart’s all a mess.” And I think potentially this is kind of like one of the ploys of the enemy to get us off track of, “Hey, be uber concerned over here so that you miss kind of the big picture of what God is trying to do in your life.”

Michael: Absolutely.

Carrie: I know that some people will repeat confessional prayers over the same sin, so I wanted to address that too. Like there’s that sin that haunts somebody. It could have been an abortion they had when they were 17 and now they’re 35. It could be somebody that hurt someone or walked away from a previous marriage and now they’re just still stuck on that thing, and some of that stuff can be really hard to overcome. We’ve talked about this on the podcast before. There is no sin that God can’t forgive. 1 John 1:9, “If we confess our sin, that He’s faithful and just to forgive us our sins and cleanse us from all unrighteousness.” Psalm 103:12, “As far as the east is from the west, so far has He removed our transgressions from us.” Any hope or encouragement that you have for people who may be stuck in that, confessing the same sin?

Michael: My answer was actually kind of in your question, and it’s, “How far is the east from the west?” I was just reading a blurb about that recently, and the east is infinitely far from the west, right? If you’re going east around the globe, there’s always a part that’s west forever, whereas north and south, there actually is like a North Pole and a South Pole. And I read somewhere somebody wrote that God, in His wisdom, intentionally wrote east from west because they’re infinitely apart. Your sin is no longer there in God’s eyes. It’s gone forever.

It’s almost just every time we feel like we have to confess a past sin, remember that and almost refuse to and be like, “I will not ask forgiveness again because God said He forgave me for this.” Easier said than done.

Carrie: Right.

Michael: But that’s the one thing we can do, is just refuse to give into that and be like, “No, I’m going to believe God.” It was that 1 John 1:9, if we confess, He is faithful and just to forgive, and He does. And I think we have to just stand on that and remind ourselves of that whenever it comes up again, because the condemnation of a past sin is never from God.

Carrie: Right.

Michael: “Therefore now no condemnation for us.” So it’s either coming from our OCD minds or it’s coming from Satan, or it’s coming from somewhere other than God, and we can ignore it because God said in His Word, it’s done.

And another thing I wanted to talk about with confession and repentance is that repentance is really just changing your mind. So if somebody’s struggling with drinking too much on the weekends, just as an example, and they’re like, “Oh, maybe I shouldn’t do it,” and then they do it and then they have no intention of not doing it again, that’s not repentance. But if they decide, “You know what? I’m not going to do that again,” that’s what repentance is. So if we’re looking at a divorce or an abortion or a one-time-event sin that we clearly have repented of, we’re not going to do again, those in my mind are so obviously something we don’t need to address again. We don’t need to confess it to God. We don’t need to confess it to other people again. It’s done. It’s forgiven. And that’s the whole point of the gospel, right? God makes us new again.

Carrie: I see what you’re talking about, like repentance for the ongoing sin, because repentance is really about turning in a different direction. It’s saying, “Okay, if every time I’m around these friends, I’m cussing like a sailor, maybe I really don’t need to be spending that amount of time with those friends because it’s leading me away from God, not towards God.” Or if, like you said, if I’m drinking on the weekends and I make a decision, “Okay, God, You’ve convicted me about this. I don’t need to be having this much alcohol,” then I can say, “Hey, let me call another brother or sister and say, ‘Hey, I want you to hold me accountable. I want you to ask me about this or make sure that I’m getting stuff out of my house.’”

Whatever those prevention-from-sin activities are, putting the filters on your computer, on your phone if you struggle with pornography, there are so many different things that we can do. And that doesn’t mean that we’re never going to fall back into that sin again, but at least we are making some efforts or steps or movements in that right direction. It may be, “Hey, I can’t get a handle on this and I need to seek professional help.” And I think that’s certainly on the table as well too.

Michael: I was listening to Mark DeJesus, I don’t know if you’ve heard of him or ever talked to him, and he was talking about how people with OCD, he reaches mostly Christians, and he said a lot of them will start doubting they’re Christians because they have this addiction or repetitive sin. And he did bring up pornography as being a common one. I’m sure there’s other ones that are just repetitive that are hard to break. And he said that is common.

And I just want to bring up, that goes back to Romans 7. The fact that we’re fighting it and those people see it as an addiction or see it as like, “Oh my gosh, I need to break free of this,” that in and of itself is evidence that there’s something working in them against their flesh, which is the Holy Spirit. So it’s encouraging that they’re feeling overwhelmed by not being able to break the habit.

Carrie: I think this is an important point to bring up. Proverbs 28:13 says, “Whoever conceals his transgressions will not prosper, but he who confesses and forsakes them will obtain mercy.” What I notice is that shame can really get in the way of repentance because if we turn towards shame and we get stuck there, it makes us want to hide instead of actually making us be able to connect with God and actively deal with our sin. We’re just like, “Well, how can I cover up the fact that I have this struggle with pornography and never tell anyone and just maybe say a prayer, ‘Oh God, please take it away from me,’ but I’m not actually willing to look at my heart and things that led me to develop that in the first place or get stuck in that cycle?”

Michael: And I think that’s where seeing our relationship with God out of a foundation of love helps, because there are obviously times where we need to confess things, but if we’re doing it with a believer that we know loves us and wants what’s best for us, and I know it’s hard to find, I’m not just saying that casually. I know it’s very hard to find strong, even lifelong friends where you can entrust those types of things to them. But it’s always in love.

And actually, Mark DeJesus was talking about this, and he goes, a lot of people with OCD even fear the topic of spiritual warfare. It’s just scary to them. And he goes, even that, we need to see it from a relationship foundation of love. God loves us and wants what’s best for us. And when we see spiritual warfare through that light, it changes the whole way we view it. So even something that we’re like, “Oh, this is overwhelming. I don’t know what to do. Satan’s around every corner,” we start spiraling. It’s like, well, if we view our relationship with God as He’s all loving and all capable and He wants what’s best for me and He cares for me and He died for me, He’s obviously going to take care of me as I fight this battle, this spiritual battle. And the same with fleshly battles, right? It’s a relationship of love. I’m not going to lie and say finding someone to trust is easy, but it is definitely something to pray for.

Carrie: Is there anything that you don’t think that we’ve touched on or anything that you further wanted to share?

Michael: I wanted to talk about kind of the lie that we often believe as OCDers about the butterfly effect, and I want to give an example from my book. Well, I actually still do a lot of sports photography, and in college I took a picture at Midnight Madness. It was a college basketball event. They put a picture that I had taken on the front page of the paper, and I remember the jersey that the guy was wearing was all orange. There was a lot of orange in the photo, and I kid you not, my thought process went something like this: “Oh my gosh, what if it wasn’t God’s will that I take pictures at the game? That means it wasn’t God’s will that they’re using the orange ink. What if they ran out of orange ink and somebody had to go get more toner cartridge from the store or from down the hall and they died going to get it? Their blood’s on my hands because I took pictures at the game.” Total ludicrous chaos.

Carrie: OCD could make a really good story.

Michael: Exactly. OCD is very creative. And I feel like sometimes we’ll view sin that way too, right? The decisions we make: “Oh, I committed this one little sin, and now somebody’s life is completely off the rails forever. Or my life is completely off the rails forever.” I remember having thoughts about where should I eat in college. Like there’s all these cafeterias. If I go to this one, what if I open to the wrong person and say the wrong thing and create a situation that derails their life or derails my life? It’s that whole fear is a lie because God is ultimately in control.

And so I wanted to bring that up because I think that is a big theme that OCDers have about sin, is that I’m going to commit this one sin that will just be irreversible for all of time.

Carrie: It’s going to wreck my life, potentially.

Michael: Exactly. And that is the opposite of what God says. God redeems us. He even loved the verse about the locusts that had destroyed the crops in, I think it’s Joel, and He says, “I’ll even restore to you the years that the locusts have eaten.” God can literally change events and life for us to restore us. That’s the whole point of the gospel, is to make us new again.

Carrie: I just encourage people to remember, we’re not that powerful. We’re not that powerful to mess up God’s plans, but OCD will have you convinced the whole world hangs on this one moment in time and making the right choice in that one moment in time.

But I wanted to end on a scripture that I really feel like brings this whole conversation into balance, and it’s 1 John 2:1. I love this so much for OCD and scrupulosity. “My little children, I am writing these things to you so that you may not sin, but if anyone does sin, we have an advocate with the Father, Jesus Christ the righteous.” And so there’s this balance. I think sometimes people fear not taking their sins seriously enough, and for John to say, “Hey, I’m writing this to you so that you don’t sin, but I want you to know if you do, we have Jesus.” I just think that is so beautiful, and hopefully that’s the truth that people can hold onto as they’re listening to this today.

Michael: Absolutely. I don’t have any concern that Christians with OCD are not taking their sins seriously enough. I think it’s always the other way around. You just reminded me of a really cool story. I remember where somebody was explaining what it looks like when somebody doesn’t take their sin seriously, right? And I think it was about, it might’ve been in a sermon, somebody was talking about somebody that had, I think, assaulted a woman, and they were having to get counseling for it. And in the counseling there was no remorse. It was almost like, “I’m just here because I have to be here. Let’s just get through this so we can move on.” There was no understanding of what they had done wrong. There was really no conscience. And that person said that was really freeing for me to see that because I know that’s not how I view my sin.

Carrie: Right.

Michael: It’s kind of like if you see it the way it’s not supposed to be done, you’ll know that the way we view sin as OCDers is not at all the wrong way. We are definitely viewing it with the weight that it deserves, if that makes sense, and even too much weight.

Carrie: Thank you so much for coming back and hanging out on the podcast with us today.

Michael: Thank you for having me.

214. Reading the Bible Differently for Scrupulosity

Written by Carrie Bock on March 11, 2026. Posted in OCD, Podcast Episode.

In this episode, Carrie explores how scrupulosity can quietly turn Scripture into fear and pressure while offering a more peaceful, grace-filled way to reconnect with God’s Word.

Episode Highlights:

Why Scripture can feel triggering when you struggle with scrupulosity
How shame cycles form around Bible avoidance
Simple ways to begin reading again without pressure
Why understanding everything isn’t required for spiritual growth
How rigid beliefs about Bible reading can fuel OCD
Practical ways to reconnect with God’s Word in peace

Episode Summary:

Is Reading the Bible Making Your Scrupulosity Worse?

There’s something I’ve been wanting to talk about in this scrupulosity series because it comes up more often than people realize.

What if reading the Bible doesn’t feel comforting to you right now?

What if, instead of peace, you feel anxiety? Instead of connection, you feel fear? Instead of hope, you feel shame?

I have talked to so many Christians who quietly struggle with this. They love God. They want to grow. They believe Scripture is true. And yet when they open their Bible, something tightens inside.

Then the guilt follows.

“I should want to read this.”
“What kind of Christian feels this way?”
“Is something wrong with my faith?”

If that’s you, I want to gently reassure you: struggling to read the Bible because of scrupulosity does not mean you don’t love God. It may simply mean OCD has attached itself to something sacred.

And that changes how we need to approach it.

What If I’ve Started Avoiding the Bible?

Avoidance makes sense when something feels threatening. OCD is trying to protect you from distress, even if it ends up keeping you stuck in the long run.

But what if the solution isn’t forcing yourself into a stricter routine?

Sometimes scrupulosity quietly adds rules that God never required.

You might believe:

I have to read first thing in the morning.
I have to read a certain number of chapters.
I have to understand everything.
I have to get a life-changing application every single time.

Over time, Bible reading becomes performance instead of relationship.

Second Timothy 3 tells us that all Scripture is breathed out by God. That language is intimate. It speaks of closeness, not condemnation.

What if instead of asking, “Am I doing this right?” you asked, “How can I connect with God in this moment?”

What if you started with one verse about His love and sat there without pressure?

Sometimes healing begins with smaller steps than we expect.

Could I Be Reading Through the Wrong Lens?

Often the issue isn’t the Bible itself.

It’s the lens we’re reading through.

If you’ve been hurt by authority figures, church experiences, or even family dynamics, it’s very easy to project that onto God. We can begin to brace for correction, rejection, or punishment instead of expecting love.

First John 4:16 tells us that God is love. Romans 8 reminds us that nothing can separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus.

But scrupulosity can make those truths feel distant.

In this episode, I share a story about encouraging someone to read a children’s Bible. That might sound unusual at first, but sometimes we need to step back and rediscover the redemptive story of Scripture without the heavy analytical lens.

Jesus said we must receive the kingdom like a child. Children approach with curiosity and trust. They don’t feel pressure to understand everything before they come close.

What if that posture could change how you approach God’s Word?

Is There a Gentler Way to Engage With Scripture?

I truly believe healing and faith can coexist.

You can deeply love Jesus and still need mental health tools. You can trust the authority of Scripture and recognize that OCD has distorted how you’re interacting with it.

If the Bible has started to feel heavy instead of life-giving, I want you to know this: God is not disappointed in you. He is not intimidated by your anxiety. He is not waiting to catch you doing it wrong.

He is inviting you into relationship.

If this resonates with you, I encourage you to listen to the full episode. There is hope for a different experience with Scripture.

Explore Related Episode:

141. Is OCD Keeping You From Reading the Bible?

Transcript

Hello and welcome back to the Scrupulosity series. Today we’re talking about reading the Bible differently for scrupulosity.

Hello and welcome to Christian Faith and OCD with Keri Bach. I’m a Christ follower, wife, and mother, and a licensed professional counselor who helps Christians struggling with OCD get to a deeper level of healing. When I couldn’t find resources for my clients with OCD, God called me to bring this podcast to you with practical tools for developing greater peace.

We’re here to bust through the shame and stigma surrounding struggling with OCD as a Christian, sharing hopeful stories of healing and helping you replace uncertainty with faith. I’m here to help you let go of the past and future to walk in the present abundant life God has for you. So let’s dive right into today’s episode.

I did an episode before, 141, on “Is OCD Keeping You from Reading the Bible?” If you want more information, you may want to go back and listen to that episode as well. Someone in our recent survey said that they had a fear of reading the Bible, and if you are listening to this, I want you to know that you are not alone because so many Christians with OCD deal with this exact same thing.

And maybe you’ve never heard that before because you might not have met someone else who has the same struggle. Now, this can happen for a variety of different reasons. Sometimes certain words can be a trigger, whether that’s the devil, the Holy Spirit, repentance—I could go on and on. I’m sure there are many different trigger words.

Sometimes certain Scripture passages can be very triggering, such as the “Lord, Lord” passage where Jesus said, “Depart from me. I never knew you.” You may feel this guilt and shame because you want to read the Bible, but reading it just seems too overwhelming or anxiety-producing. So then you end up avoiding it, and it just causes this whole shame cycle.

So what should you do if you’ve been avoiding reading the Bible because it’s become too triggering for your scrupulosity? The first thing I want to say is to start small. Take a few Scriptures, maybe from Episode 211 on embracing God’s love. We have those references in the show notes for you. You can write those Scriptures on an index card, start with one or two, and just read them really slowly.

Maybe even put your name in the Scripture verse somewhere. God does not want you to be terrified for you to read His love letter to you. This is a love letter. It’s a story about God’s love for us, about redemption, and God doesn’t want us to live in so much fear that we can’t even pick up the Bible and read what He has to say to us.

Thinking about my own child, if there’s something that I want her to know or that I want to communicate to her, I want her to be able to receive that information in love. Even if it’s hard, even if it’s a discipline conversation, I want her to still have the understanding and knowledge that I love her, and I don’t want her to be afraid to come to me about anything.

Maybe a small thing that you can do to enter back into Bible reading, if you’ve been avoiding it, is to read a children’s Bible. Yes, even if you’re all grown up. I told this story in my email list. My email subscribers typically hear things from me first, so if you want to get on our email list, just go to kerybach.com and scroll to the bottom of that homepage to sign up for the newsletter.

I had a thought. I was working with a client who was dealing with some intense scrupulosity, just a negative viewpoint of God—God being harsh, God not being loving, God out to get this individual. I was reading The Jesus Storybook Bible to my daughter, and I thought, this is a great Bible because it’s all about God’s love and redemptive story and how Jesus is on every page of the Bible, how it shows Jesus’ story of redemption through the Old Testament and then joins it into the New Testament.

It’s just a wonderful children’s Bible if you have kids or if you have scrupulosity. So I thought maybe I’ll mail this to my client that I was seeing virtually. And then my initial thought was, wow, that’s a really crazy idea. Like, you’re going to mail a grown man a children’s Bible? What is wrong with you? It’s not going to land. It’s not going to go well.

The next thing I knew, I had the thought again, like, oh, maybe I should give him this Bible. And I wrestled with that a little bit, but not as much. I thought, well, maybe that would be a good idea. Maybe this is something that could shift someone’s belief about God to be in a more positive, biblical headspace.

The third time I thought about it, I was praying and just really felt this tug internally from the Holy Spirit that I needed to do this. I mailed the Bible. I said, “Hey, I’m sending you a book that might be helpful to you. Just kind of be open to it, if you will.” It turned out really, really well. This individual was receptive to it, and it was just a great opportunity to read the Bible differently than this individual was used to reading it.

We have our own lenses a lot of times that we take and view the Bible through—our own experiences, past teachings that we’ve heard from other pastors or spiritual leaders, even things that you may have picked up online too. People are consuming so much content nowadays that they didn’t use to 50 or 100 years ago. We didn’t have access to the massive amount of information that we have right now.

In Mark 10:14, Jesus becomes indignant with the disciples and says, “Let the children come to me and do not hinder them, for such belong the kingdom of God. I say to you, whoever does not receive the kingdom of God like a child shall not enter it.”

We want to be able to come to God with a sense of wonder, of curiosity, of not feeling like we have to have it all figured out. Do you ever notice that children aren’t afraid to ask questions? They’ll just ask you, “Why is this like this?” or “What is that thing over there?” Why? Because they want to know.

They have this sense of true wonder and trying to understand, but yet at the same time, there’s no pressure to have to know everything. And if we could just come to God like that, being open and being willing to read His Word and to hear what He has to say to us, I think we all could benefit from that.

I would encourage you to sit down in a place of quiet and really examine potential rigid beliefs that you might have about Bible reading. These are some examples that I came up with, but there probably are more.

One: I have to read a certain amount or in a certain way.
Two: I have to read at a certain time of day.

That could be a very rigid belief if you think, well, I have to read the Bible first thing in the morning. What happens if you have a really rough night of sleep and you aren’t able to read your Bible? You rush out the door and you’re just laden with all of this guilt and shame. I completely messed up my Bible reading for the day.

Well, no. There are still plenty of other hours in the day that you could read your Bible. You could put your Bible on in the car on the way to work. You could read your Bible on your lunch break. You could read your Bible before you go to bed. You don’t have to set up this rigid structure that sets you up for failure.

Another one that I thought of—I know I had fallen into this for many years—is, I have to get something out of it. Like I have to have some type of application step from reading the Bible.

Now that I’m farther along in my Christian walk, one thing I’ve realized about Bible reading is that, for me, it’s a way to connect with God. That connection piece is very important. And God may say something to me while I’m reading His Word, like, oh, I could be more loving to my spouse in this situation. Maybe I need to watch my tongue and make sure that my words are edifying to other people.

There are many different things that I might be able to apply from the Bible. But sometimes it’s just a matter of getting that Word in you. And the more that you put that Word in you, the more that it will come out of you in the best possible way. The Word of God is transformative. As we put that in, it changes us. As we interact with the Word, God brings Scripture to mind when we most need it, if we take that time to put it in there.

So it’s not always about this immediate three-step process of changing my life because I read these chapters of the Bible. Use it as a connection point, not as a very rigid “I have to do something after I read this.”

Maybe one of your rigid beliefs is about feeling like you’ve got to read it like a textbook and dissect it and understand everything and read all the commentaries. Maybe it’s looking at all the footnotes, trying to really grapple with it and make sure that you’re getting all the knowledge you possibly can. That is probably going to lead you to burnout if you do that all the time.

Now, there may be a time and a place. I am taking a very long time to go through an Isaiah Bible study that I have right now because it’s one of those deeper-dive type studies where you’re looking at parallel passages, a little bit of the meaning of words, and recognizing some repetition.

That’s the reason that it’s taking me a while to get through it. I will pick it up and then I’ll put it down and read something else for a little while. I’ll pick up Isaiah again, go through some of those Bible studies, and then put it back down. It helps to have a little bit of time away so that I can see more clearly when I come back to it.

I don’t think there’s a right or a wrong way to do that. If somebody decided they wanted to dive in and go straight through it, that’s fine. But I find, for me, it’s helpful to take a break from that and go read some of the Gospels or something in the New Testament, and then come back and do this deeper dive.

Who knows? I may be on and off in Isaiah for another year. I have no idea. It’s been really good for me, though, to have some time to dig in a little bit deeper without being rigid about it.

Another belief that you might need to let go of is that you have to understand everything. It’s the Holy Spirit who helps us interpret the Bible and understand what it means. But there are going to be times where you wrestle and you’re not really sure what something means, and we have to be okay with that.

We may come to understand it later. We may do some deeper research. We may just let it go and say, “God, this Scripture passage is really hard, and I don’t understand it.” We don’t have to immediately come to some type of resolution or understanding for everything that we read in the Bible.

We learn and grow. We hear different teachings. We pray about it, and the Holy Spirit reveals things to us. It’s a process. It’s not something that you have to feel like you have to rush through and know it all.

So let’s look at why we even read the Bible in the first place. If we have fear tied up around reading the Bible, why are we engaging in this practice?

Well, we’re spending time with God. Like I said, that’s His love letter to us. We’re trying to make a connection. It’s like when you spend time with your spouse or a close friend. All kinds of things can happen. Sometimes you feel really connected. You have deep conversations. You feel really loved.

Other times, you’re just sitting there like two blobs on the couch, each of you on your own phone. But even then, the showing up is important.

Sometimes in our relationship with God, we may feel like, okay, I’m here. I’m reading. I don’t even really know what’s happening with me. I don’t know if I’m necessarily understanding this or getting anything out of it. But the important part is that you’re showing up, that you’re putting in the spiritual reps to get to know God better. And there’s really no better way to do that than by opening up the Bible and studying it for yourself.

I would say don’t always rely on everyone else to teach you about the Bible. There comes a point in time where you may need to put some of the commentaries down or the Bible studies aside and literally just read the Word of God.

We read the Bible not just to spend time with God, but to get to know Him—His character. What does the Bible say about Him? What can I learn from the experiences of people in the Bible?

The Bible teaches us how to live and how to be in relationship with other people. That’s so important because some of us don’t know how to be in relationship with others. We don’t know how to have healthy conflict. We don’t know how to set a boundary. We don’t know how to truly love someone sacrificially.

We’re all in this process, trying to figure it out in community. Hopefully you’re in some type of Christian community or church where other people can come alongside you and where you can support each other on this journey. I believe that’s an important piece of the puzzle as well.

It’s not just about you having an individual relationship with God. It’s about walking with God in community. That is very biblical.

Second Timothy 3:16–17 states, “All Scripture is breathed out by God and profitable for teaching, for reproof, for correction, for training in righteousness, that the man of God may be complete, equipped for every good work.”

Timothy three, 16 and 17 states, all scripture is breathed out by God. Well love that part. Breathed out by God and profitable for teaching, for reprove, for correction.

For training in righteousness. What? That the man of God may be complete equipped for every good work. So we are receiving the words of God for teaching correction so that we can be righteous, we can be equipped for everything that God has called us to do. It’s gonna be really hard to be equipped for all that God has called you to do if you’re not spending time with him and if you’re not getting to know him.

Now, let’s say that you’re not avoiding reading the Bible. Maybe you’re not afraid like this person who is taking the survey, but maybe you feel like, you know what? I do have some of these rigid beliefs about reading the Bible. Carrie, and I am in an OCD rut. I feel like I’ve gotta do it a certain way. It feels super uncomfortable if I don’t follow this exact pattern of reading the Bible that I have.

This is where I, I’m gonna encourage you to be a little uncomfortable and switch it up a tad. Okay, so I’m back on episode 1 54. We had Jennifer Tucker on to talk with us about Lectio Divina, which is a specific way of reading. Scripture is very, uh, slow meditative. You know, you read through the scripture passage different times.

She also has a great book on prayers. We have another podcast episode on that hearts out to Jennifer Tucker. We love her. But you may want to listen to the Bible or read it out loud just to give you a different perspective or a different way of reading the Bible. I listened to a Bible in a year podcast for a little period, and the people had really great your English accent, so that was fun as well.

But you may find something like that where people are reading through the Bible, maybe reading a different version of the Bible than you’re used to. Sometimes it can be helpful to compare versions. Especially when we get tripped up on certain words, because different translations may have different word meanings that come out, and if you’re really stuck on, oh wow, I’m not really sure what that exactly is saying.

Sometimes reading it in a different translation can help you. There are word for word translations and there are phrase translations. You can look all of that good stuff up on the internet. Now, there is a soap way of reading the Bible. I found this interesting because as a therapist you’re taught there is a soap way to write notes.

SOAP is an acronym. Okay? It stands for Scripture Observation, application, and Prayer. Scripture can prompt us to pray for specific things for ourself, for others, so the SOAP method is another avenue for you. If you want read through the Bible in chronological order, there are chronological Bibles. Steve and I did that in 2024 with our church.

It was a very interesting experience and definitely brought out some things that we hadn’t necessarily seen before or thought of like. Oh, oftentimes we don’t think of, job, for example, was actually a very early book in the Bible, even though it’s in the middle, kind of in the wisdom literature section.

They also did a great job kind of incorporating the Psalms with different historical events that were happening in the Old Testament. So. There’s little different pieces that you can pick up from reading the Bible differently, and so you may have to shake things up a little bit to work through that rut or feeling like, I’ve gotta do it this way.

And these are all healthy ways of reading the Bible. We’re not telling you to do something really strange or crazy, just trying to help you have a different perspective so that you can connect with God maybe in a different way that you haven’t before. Do you have other thoughts or questions on reading the Bible?

And you have Scrupulosity love to hear from you. You can reach me at cherry bach com. We have a main contact form and I would love to hear from you later in this series. We’re gonna do a question and answer episode for different topics or questions that came up from our listeners. Some survey comments that we got, so we would love to hear your questions and hopefully be able to answer some of those to the best of our ability.

Alright, thanks so much for listening. Until next time, may you be comforted by God’s great love for you. Christian faith in OCD is a production of By the Well Counseling. This podcast is for informational purposes only, and should not be a substitute for seeking mental health treatment in your area.